Chapter 5
Now dressed again in all but our socks and shoes I sit next to Ito in living room of his house. Natalie and Mikhail still haven’t shown up quite yet and still I know it won’t be much longer until they do. Meanwhile I keep messing with Ito kissing him lightly and quickly pulling away teasing him. It takes him a while to finally just keep from kissing me at all. I keep my face right in front of him and pout at him. “Tease.” He calls me very lightly and I laugh a little at that.
“Well I’d do more but I don’t know when your ex is showing up.” I tell him and he grins slightly then presses his lips to mine his hand in my hair keeping me there. Still I just kiss him back anyway and smile at him when he finally pulls away.
“So? She’ll knock and that still isn’t a good enough reason to tease me that much.” He says and I grin at him and kiss him keeping my lips there quite a bit longer then before.
“I know.” I tell him lightly and I go to kiss him again but then the doorbell rings. I sigh instead and look right at him. “They’re here.” I say and he grins at me and kisses me very quickly.
“Come on.” He says and I grin a little then follow him to the front door. He opens the door and we see Natalie holding Mikhail against her chest as he is already asleep. Ito takes Mikhail from her carefully and goes to the boy’s room, which leaves me standing awkwardly in front of Natalie.
“Hi.” She says to me seeming a little out of sorts herself.
“Hi.” I say back and then in an act of good faith I decide to go on. “My name is Kevin. I know you’re Natalie, I saw you before but we didn’t say anything. It’s nice to meet you.” I tell her trying my best to be calm and hoping I look older then my seventeen years.
“Nice to meet you Kevin.” She replies back a bit quickly holding out her hand for me to shake. I shake her hand quickly and luckily our weird conversation doesn’t have to go on much longer as Ito walks back out of Mikhail’s room. She turns her attention to him and so do I. But then feeling a little pissed at her showing up still I decide to do something a little immature. I wrap my arm around Ito’s waist and then kiss him very quickly on the lips.
“I’m going to wait for you in your room k.” I tell him and walk off but instead of actually going to his room I stop once I’m around the corner and listen to them.
“So is he your boyfriend?” I hear Natalie ask and I wonder slightly how Ito is going to answer that.
“Something like that.” He tells her honestly and I smile at that. “That’s none of your business though, I thought you had somewhere to be.” He tells her and I get that he is just trying to get rid of her.
“Fine, he just seems a bit young.” She says and I wonder more so how he will respond to that.
“He’s twenty.” He lies for me and I wonder if it’s more for himself or for me all the same though it makes me smile to hear him speaking up for me. I see Natalie shrug before she looks at her watch and then quickly responds.
“Well I have to go I’ll be back for Mikhail later.” She says and then leaves. I start to go to Ito’s room like I said I would earlier but then I hear Ito’s voice.
“Kevin, come here.” He says sounding a bit angry and feeling a bit childish I peek around the corner and walk over to him seeing that he does look mad. When I am right in front of him he sees the look on my own face and his softens to where he just looks disappointed. “Kevin why did you do that?” He asks me and I sigh then kiss him very lightly on the lips.
“Sorry, Ito. I just… sorry.” I tell him not able to explain myself. He frowns at me and takes my hand leading me to his bedroom. He sits on his bed and pulls me to him having me sit on his lap. I look at him not feeling bad at what I did entirely that much. I smile at him and then kiss him again. He holds me there a little while kissing me softly. “Sorry.” I say one last time.
“It’s ok, just don’t do that again ok?” He says and I nod to him seriously. He smiles at me and moves further back on the bed keeping me on top of him. I grin at him and move to kiss him pinning him to bed slightly. I undo Ito’s pants and pull them off of him, grinning he does the same stripping my pants off of me. Then I kiss him again; he grins into the kiss but as I deepen the kiss making it lustful he pulls away. “Kevin I’m sorry I know Mikhail is asleep and all but we still shouldn’t do too much ok?” The way he phrases it I’m not really sure if it is a question though. I sigh still and nod to him then just curl my body into his.
We lie next to each other as I quietly think to myself. At some point or another Ito gets up and turns off the light. I think to myself about Ito and Jesse, about how long I’ve known Jess and how great of friends we are where as I really haven’t known Ito for long and there are quite a few reasons that we shouldn’t be together. Not only that but also I know there are more feelings between Jesse and me. I hate to admit it but I know that I’m really starting to fall for both of them and I know there can’t be a worse place to be then in the middle of that. I move a little and Ito moves as well until we are facing each other both of us eye to eye. Ito wraps his arms around my waist and smiles at me slightly. “You should get some sleep.” He tells me softly.
I grin at him slightly. “You should too.” I say lightly.
“What are you doing tomorrow?” He asks me and my smile dims as I bite my lower lip slightly.
“I’m going over to a friend’s house we’re throwing a party for Jesse’s birthday.” I tell him finding that I am actually looking forward to it myself. “So I’m probably going to leave kind of early. Sorry.” I tell him lightly not really sure why I am apologizing. He kisses my lips softly.
“Don’t worry about it I was just wondering.” He tells me and I smile. Then he kisses me very deeply keeping me there and holding my body very close to his. “I’m sorry about Natalie coming over.” He says a bit out of breath from the kiss. I grin at him and kiss him again making out lustfully.
“You don’t worry about that.” I tell him and he smirks at me. “Come on lets go to sleep.” I say and he snuggles up to me and I kiss him very lightly on the lips. I start to fall asleep even as I hold him lightly.
I wake up before Ito and see him snuggling into me his hair messed up around his face a bit and his eyes lightly pressed shut. I see how cute he looks and I can’t help but to lean over him and lightly kiss his forehead. Ito moves when I kiss him though and somehow my lips end up pressed into his. That’s when his eyes open and upon seeing me soften and he grins slightly just pulling away from the kiss. I smile at him lightly, “Morning.” I say feeling my cheeks turning red slightly at how he woke up.
He just smiles at me and lightly kisses my lips. “Morning.” He tells me and then wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me to him. “How did you sleep?” He asks me yawning as he says it. I smile at him and wrap my arms around his neck.
“Pretty good. You?”
“Fine.” Then we hear this light knocking on the door. Ito smiles at me lightly then gets up still in his shirt and boxers and opens his door. Mikhail stands there sleepily rubbing his eyes and then when he sees Ito he looks up at him. “Hey, Mike, g’morning.”
“Morning Daddy.” He says back and Ito picks him up and in turning towards the bed Mikhail’s eyes settle on me. “Hi Kevin.” He says and I calmly say hi back to him, feeling a little strange being near Ito’s kid in the morning and strangely the fact that I’m not wearing pants doesn’t bother me though I think it might have if Ito had a daughter instead. Ito just smiles around his son at me and I grin back.
“You want some breakfast?” Ito asks Mikhail and I hate to admit it but seeing how Ito is with Mikhail, so completely smitten, it makes me a little jealous. Little Mikey smiles and nods his head and with Ito’s silent look at me I follow them to the kitchen. Ito pours Mikhail a bowl of Lucky Charms and I smile more at that thinking of how I used to eat cereals like that when I was little. Of course thinking that just makes me remember how I never had a father myself while growing up. My father left as soon as he found out about my mom being pregnant.
So it’s always been just my mom and me, leaving her to raise me by herself and work two jobs so I hardly see her. That’s probably the only reason I can stay out of the house so much though. I wipe a slight tear from my eye and walk back to Ito’s room without a word. I slip my pants back on and sit on Ito’s bed for a little while. Then Ito walks in by himself and looks at me. “Are you ok?” He asks me seeming confused. I smile very slightly at him and get up hugging him to me.
“Sorry, I’ll tell you later ok. Just don’t worry about it.” I tell him feeling my eyes water very slightly again. He notices and wipes it away and holds me to him very tightly kissing the top of my head.
“Hey don’t start crying and tell me not to worry about it. Kevin please talk to me. What’s wrong?” He says very lightly even as he picks me up and then sits on the bed with me on his lap.
“Sorry Ito I’m just ruining this. It’s just watching you in there with Mikhail; I never met my father.” I say as if that explains everything. He holds me even closer to him and for a long time neither one of us says anything.
Then I just get up and wipe away the last of my tears wondering slightly why Mikhail hasn’t wondered where his father is and come looking. “Sorry about that.” I say and then look over at the clock on Ito’s nightstand seeing that I need to get over to Isaac’s soon. “Uhm I need to get ready, sorry I have to go.” I say and Ito frowns at me. I quickly kiss his lips but he holds me there making out with me. Unluckily for us that’s when Mikhail finally walks in.
“Dad?” I pull away completely and then grab my bag biting my lower lip.
“I’m going to change now.” I say excusing myself and quickly moving to Ito’s bathroom. I can’t help my actions, I have no idea how to react to Mikhail walking in and seeing us kiss. I change clothes figuring that it is best to leave Ito to talk to his son on his own. I brush out my blonde hair once again thinking how I really need to get it trimmed and my dark green eyes are looking slightly bloodshot right now. I splash some water on my face trying to get rid of the redness and the bloodshot look in my eyes. Then I look at my outfit: I’m wearing skintight jeans and a plain long sleeved dark green shirt.
I stand by the door for a few seconds then finally open it and walk out of the bathroom and slowly back to Ito’s room. But neither Ito nor Mikhail are there. “Looking for me?” I hear Ito ask and I turn around to see him. “If you were expecting some big freak out then you’re a few years overdue. Mikhail has seen me kiss boys before.” He tells me and I grin blushing slightly then he notices that I’m dressed and ready to go. “You’re still leaving aren’t you?” He says and I smile and nod slightly.
“I told you last night I have to, it’s Jesse’s birthday. I’ll see you soon though ok.” I tell him back and put my socks and shoes on. He smiles and nods then pulls me to him and kisses me again lightly and quickly this time.
“K. Have fun.” He tells me and I grin just nodding to him. I grab up my bag and leave kissing Ito very lightly at the door. I drive to Isaac’s house thinking about all that happened with Ito and at the same time thinking about Jesse and wondering how I am going to keep this going with both of them for much longer. I park at Isaac’s house seeing the cars of a few of my other friends’. I leave my bag in the car and walk to Isaac’s front door. I let myself in not bothering with even knocking on the door since I know they are expecting me. I see Will first; he stands there in the front room rearranging how the couch is to make more room on the floor. His greenish gray eyes meet mine and his lips open once they do.
“Oh hey, Kev, help me move this.” He tells me not wasting time with greeting me and without a response I move to the other end of the couch and do as he says. The couch is a bit heavy so once we move it I let out a large breath. “Thanks, but I think Isaac needs some help in the kitchen.” He tells me laughing a little and I grimace half-heartedly.
“That’s women’s work.” I groan and he laughs some more. I know I don’t mean what I just said but around all my friends I just can’t help but say things like that. I walk into the kitchen though and see Isaac there, sticking a pizza into the oven, the take out kind. “Hey Isaac.” I say and he turns and looks at me giving me a full view of his lithe body and the soft dark brown hair that covers his eyes and most of the time all of his face. I slouch up against the wall watching him.
“You’re late.” He states bluntly and I just shrug. “You’re going to have to bring Jesse here.” He tells me finally looking over at me and I whine a little at that.
“That was supposed to be Phillip’s job.” I say and Isaac shrugs at that.
“Well everyone else is a little behind because you weren’t here earlier; so now it’s your job. Have fun and don’t go and blow it.” He tells me and I sigh.
“K, anything else?” I ask somehow knowing that’s not all.
“Yeah we need cups and soda, you got enough money for that?” I nod to him and then he just goes on talking. “K then go get those things and when you get back it should be good enough timing for you to go get Jess.” He tells me and I nod then head back out the door. I drive to a nearby grocery store and pick up plastic cups and around four two-liters of soda because there are going to be somewhere between fifteen to twenty people there including girls so I know better then to not get enough and have to come back later.
Speaking of which I know that there’s a very good chance that some of the girls will be there by the time I get back and also that a lot of them are going to be hitting on Jesse. Thinking that makes me worried a little because I’m half sure Jess will ignore all of them because of me. It amazes me more that I am a little protective of Jesse not wanting the girls to hit on him.
I drive back to Isaac’s and drop off the drinks and cups noticing vaguely that the girls have shown up and then I get back in my car and drive to Jesse’s. Then again I’m also thinking that Jess is going to start hitting on me seeing as I’m going to have to get him in my car and not tell him where we are going. I knock on the front door this time and smiling Jesse’s mom just lets me in and yells Jesse’s name calling him down. Jess sees me and smiles. “Hey what’s up?” He asks seeming happy to see me and I grin at him.
“You doing anything?” I ask and he smiles wider and shakes his head. “Good come on we’re leaving.” I tell him and he grins wider and shrugs his eyebrows slightly.
“Hey Mom I’m going out ok.” Jess says to her and she just nods. Then the both of us leave climbing into my car and as soon as we get in the car he leans over to me and kisses me on the lips. “Where are we going?” He asks and I just grin at him.
“That’s a secret.” I say knowing somehow that Jess is going to think the party was my idea when really it was Isaac’s. Jesse just grins at my answer though and links his fingers with mine once I start up the car. I don’t bother with taking out of the way roads instead I just drive straight to Isaac’s house acting completely normal. Jesse looks at me a little confused.
“This is the big secret?” He asks and I smile already having a solution for that.
“Nah, we’re just stopping here for a little while. Come on.” I tell him already getting out of the car myself. Jess shrugs and gets out of the car himself seeming to believe me. I knock on the door three times then wait for a few seconds personally knowing that no one is going to answer. I knock again twice this time but then when still no one answers I look to Jess and shrug. I try the knob and of course it easily opens. All the lights are off and the living room is completely dark.
“That’s weird.” Jess says then he flicks on the light and everyone jumps out from various places screaming ‘Surprise.’ I grin watching Jesse’s face light up and in watching I also find that I have the urge to kiss him. The party goes off with out a hitch and with several of the girls hitting on Jesse. He doesn’t exactly shine them on though instead he flirts right back but with occasional winks and glances at me assuring me that he doesn’t really mean it. Though when he actually kisses Gabby, a brunette that hangs around Will a lot, it ticks me off a bit making me have to leave for a second to calm down. Other then that though, it’s not that bad.
By the end of the night Jesse is a little drunk as are quite a number of the other people there and I myself am a bit tipsy. Jesse and I get in my car and I drive back to his house glad that his mom won’t be there seeing as she called him at the party and said so. We stumble slightly into his house and to his room; my hands are on him before the both of us hit the bed. “Mhmm you’re so hot Jess.” I tell him kissing his lips messily and he kisses me back intensely.
I guess the alcohol emboldens him because his hand slides into my pants grabbing my dick and pulling on it. “Kevin fuck me please, please fuck me.” He tells me stroking my dick even more and making me moan loudly. I practically rip his clothes off of him and kiss his neck all over even as he strips me as well. Unthinking I don’t even bother to prep him instead I just thrust right into him and he makes a noise somewhere between a moan and a yelp and kisses me deeply.
I taste the alcohol heavily on his lips and tongue. “You’re so drunk.” I say laughing even as I say it and thrusting into him enjoying how tight he is around me. I lean down to kiss his lips my lips landing on his cheek instead and I realize I’m a bit drunker then I thought. He just moans grabbing my hips and slamming me into him. Yet he laughs slightly as well.
“You’re drunk.” He echoes and we both laugh a little but then get too caught up in me moving in and out of him to say anything. I finish up a bit earlier then I would like another lovely effect of the alcohol but neither one of us seems to mind, as we lie there dozing off from the alcohol and the post orgasm bliss. We fall asleep easily but not without one last sentiment from Jesse, “I love you.” He tells me and taken in by the bliss and the alcohol I carelessly repeat the words back to him.
“I love you too Jesse.”
***
I wake up with a slight headache and the remembrance of my words to Jesse. The memory gives me a bigger headache as I try to figure out whether or not I really meant it although I know at least part of me does. Though I also know that Jesse was quite a bit drunker then I was so I’m half hoping he won’t remember it or that he will be completely hung over. As Jesse’s eyes open very slowly he quickly squeezes them shut again. “Headache?” I ask him lightly and then for some reason I kiss him on the lips softly.
“Yeah, don’t talk so loud. I think I drank too much.” He complains and I laugh lightly.
“You did drink too much.” I whisper to him lightly. “Though it was kind of funny watching you drain that bottle of rum.” I tell him and he just smiles and pulls me to him.
“Well if I remember right I think what happened after the party was a lot more fun.” He tells me and I grin at him wondering just how much he remembers about after. Still I act calmly and kiss his lips again.
“That was fun.” I agree and he grins very widely at me and holds me very tightly to him.
“I love you.” He tells me and knowing he does remember that makes me a little weary. I smile a little awkwardly at him but I don’t repeat the line back. “What’s wrong?” He asks me seeming not quite as happy any more.
“Sorry, about that. I was drunk, Jesse.” I tell him using that mainly as an excuse. His eyes flare a bit not mad really just kind of disappointed.
“Don’t worry about it.” He tells me sounding a little angry but it seems that he is more mad at himself for believing that I would change just for him. Jesse gets up and as soon as he does he falls to the ground. I’m guessing it’s from his lack of balance due to alcohol and probably also due to how rough I was with the sex last night. I quickly get off the bed and help him up not caring that both of us are still naked. I pull him back to the bed against his struggles.
“Jesse I didn’t mean it like that. I mean I like you a lot but I just don’t know if I love you.” I tell him thinking to myself more so about Ito and how I don’t want to tell either one of them that I love them because that wouldn’t be right to be saying I love them and still be dating the other one. Jess still doesn’t even look at me though and I should have guessed he wouldn’t accept that answer. I slip my hand under his chin and pull his face toward me making him look me in the eye. “Jess please say something.” I tell him and then he actually looks me in the eye and I notice he is crying a little.
“I should have known. That’s all, you always do this, Kevin, to all of them.” He tells me and I sigh knowing it would come down to this.
“Jesse it’s not like that.”
“Really? Then what’s it like? It’s just a game to you, you don’t care about me.” He says and at that I pull him to me kissing his lips deeply.
“I do care about you Jess that’s not it.” I tell him but then the look in his eyes change like he made a decision.
“It’s him, isn’t it? You care about him more.” He accuses me and without even asking I know he is talking about Ito.
“Jess this doesn’t have to do with Ito this has to do with you and me.” I tell him but my voice doesn’t seem entirely convinced and neither does Jesse.
“Then why are you still seeing him? I know you are Kev. If you care so much about me then why would you want to hurt me by being with him?” He asks and by this point he is making me a little angry so I don’t think before I answer.
“Because I don’t want to hurt either of you!” I all but yell at him and I feel tears streaming down my face. “I like both of you Jesse. I can’t decide, I’m stuck. Jess please don’t force me to choose ok. Okay?” I say knowing my eyes are long past bloodshot and Jesse is still looking at me right in the eye. Then at the same exact moment we just fall into hugging each other holding each other so tight as I wonder how he and Ito can make me cry so easily and so much.
“Well I’d do more but I don’t know when your ex is showing up.” I tell him and he grins slightly then presses his lips to mine his hand in my hair keeping me there. Still I just kiss him back anyway and smile at him when he finally pulls away.
“So? She’ll knock and that still isn’t a good enough reason to tease me that much.” He says and I grin at him and kiss him keeping my lips there quite a bit longer then before.
“I know.” I tell him lightly and I go to kiss him again but then the doorbell rings. I sigh instead and look right at him. “They’re here.” I say and he grins at me and kisses me very quickly.
“Come on.” He says and I grin a little then follow him to the front door. He opens the door and we see Natalie holding Mikhail against her chest as he is already asleep. Ito takes Mikhail from her carefully and goes to the boy’s room, which leaves me standing awkwardly in front of Natalie.
“Hi.” She says to me seeming a little out of sorts herself.
“Hi.” I say back and then in an act of good faith I decide to go on. “My name is Kevin. I know you’re Natalie, I saw you before but we didn’t say anything. It’s nice to meet you.” I tell her trying my best to be calm and hoping I look older then my seventeen years.
“Nice to meet you Kevin.” She replies back a bit quickly holding out her hand for me to shake. I shake her hand quickly and luckily our weird conversation doesn’t have to go on much longer as Ito walks back out of Mikhail’s room. She turns her attention to him and so do I. But then feeling a little pissed at her showing up still I decide to do something a little immature. I wrap my arm around Ito’s waist and then kiss him very quickly on the lips.
“I’m going to wait for you in your room k.” I tell him and walk off but instead of actually going to his room I stop once I’m around the corner and listen to them.
“So is he your boyfriend?” I hear Natalie ask and I wonder slightly how Ito is going to answer that.
“Something like that.” He tells her honestly and I smile at that. “That’s none of your business though, I thought you had somewhere to be.” He tells her and I get that he is just trying to get rid of her.
“Fine, he just seems a bit young.” She says and I wonder more so how he will respond to that.
“He’s twenty.” He lies for me and I wonder if it’s more for himself or for me all the same though it makes me smile to hear him speaking up for me. I see Natalie shrug before she looks at her watch and then quickly responds.
“Well I have to go I’ll be back for Mikhail later.” She says and then leaves. I start to go to Ito’s room like I said I would earlier but then I hear Ito’s voice.
“Kevin, come here.” He says sounding a bit angry and feeling a bit childish I peek around the corner and walk over to him seeing that he does look mad. When I am right in front of him he sees the look on my own face and his softens to where he just looks disappointed. “Kevin why did you do that?” He asks me and I sigh then kiss him very lightly on the lips.
“Sorry, Ito. I just… sorry.” I tell him not able to explain myself. He frowns at me and takes my hand leading me to his bedroom. He sits on his bed and pulls me to him having me sit on his lap. I look at him not feeling bad at what I did entirely that much. I smile at him and then kiss him again. He holds me there a little while kissing me softly. “Sorry.” I say one last time.
“It’s ok, just don’t do that again ok?” He says and I nod to him seriously. He smiles at me and moves further back on the bed keeping me on top of him. I grin at him and move to kiss him pinning him to bed slightly. I undo Ito’s pants and pull them off of him, grinning he does the same stripping my pants off of me. Then I kiss him again; he grins into the kiss but as I deepen the kiss making it lustful he pulls away. “Kevin I’m sorry I know Mikhail is asleep and all but we still shouldn’t do too much ok?” The way he phrases it I’m not really sure if it is a question though. I sigh still and nod to him then just curl my body into his.
We lie next to each other as I quietly think to myself. At some point or another Ito gets up and turns off the light. I think to myself about Ito and Jesse, about how long I’ve known Jess and how great of friends we are where as I really haven’t known Ito for long and there are quite a few reasons that we shouldn’t be together. Not only that but also I know there are more feelings between Jesse and me. I hate to admit it but I know that I’m really starting to fall for both of them and I know there can’t be a worse place to be then in the middle of that. I move a little and Ito moves as well until we are facing each other both of us eye to eye. Ito wraps his arms around my waist and smiles at me slightly. “You should get some sleep.” He tells me softly.
I grin at him slightly. “You should too.” I say lightly.
“What are you doing tomorrow?” He asks me and my smile dims as I bite my lower lip slightly.
“I’m going over to a friend’s house we’re throwing a party for Jesse’s birthday.” I tell him finding that I am actually looking forward to it myself. “So I’m probably going to leave kind of early. Sorry.” I tell him lightly not really sure why I am apologizing. He kisses my lips softly.
“Don’t worry about it I was just wondering.” He tells me and I smile. Then he kisses me very deeply keeping me there and holding my body very close to his. “I’m sorry about Natalie coming over.” He says a bit out of breath from the kiss. I grin at him and kiss him again making out lustfully.
“You don’t worry about that.” I tell him and he smirks at me. “Come on lets go to sleep.” I say and he snuggles up to me and I kiss him very lightly on the lips. I start to fall asleep even as I hold him lightly.
I wake up before Ito and see him snuggling into me his hair messed up around his face a bit and his eyes lightly pressed shut. I see how cute he looks and I can’t help but to lean over him and lightly kiss his forehead. Ito moves when I kiss him though and somehow my lips end up pressed into his. That’s when his eyes open and upon seeing me soften and he grins slightly just pulling away from the kiss. I smile at him lightly, “Morning.” I say feeling my cheeks turning red slightly at how he woke up.
He just smiles at me and lightly kisses my lips. “Morning.” He tells me and then wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me to him. “How did you sleep?” He asks me yawning as he says it. I smile at him and wrap my arms around his neck.
“Pretty good. You?”
“Fine.” Then we hear this light knocking on the door. Ito smiles at me lightly then gets up still in his shirt and boxers and opens his door. Mikhail stands there sleepily rubbing his eyes and then when he sees Ito he looks up at him. “Hey, Mike, g’morning.”
“Morning Daddy.” He says back and Ito picks him up and in turning towards the bed Mikhail’s eyes settle on me. “Hi Kevin.” He says and I calmly say hi back to him, feeling a little strange being near Ito’s kid in the morning and strangely the fact that I’m not wearing pants doesn’t bother me though I think it might have if Ito had a daughter instead. Ito just smiles around his son at me and I grin back.
“You want some breakfast?” Ito asks Mikhail and I hate to admit it but seeing how Ito is with Mikhail, so completely smitten, it makes me a little jealous. Little Mikey smiles and nods his head and with Ito’s silent look at me I follow them to the kitchen. Ito pours Mikhail a bowl of Lucky Charms and I smile more at that thinking of how I used to eat cereals like that when I was little. Of course thinking that just makes me remember how I never had a father myself while growing up. My father left as soon as he found out about my mom being pregnant.
So it’s always been just my mom and me, leaving her to raise me by herself and work two jobs so I hardly see her. That’s probably the only reason I can stay out of the house so much though. I wipe a slight tear from my eye and walk back to Ito’s room without a word. I slip my pants back on and sit on Ito’s bed for a little while. Then Ito walks in by himself and looks at me. “Are you ok?” He asks me seeming confused. I smile very slightly at him and get up hugging him to me.
“Sorry, I’ll tell you later ok. Just don’t worry about it.” I tell him feeling my eyes water very slightly again. He notices and wipes it away and holds me to him very tightly kissing the top of my head.
“Hey don’t start crying and tell me not to worry about it. Kevin please talk to me. What’s wrong?” He says very lightly even as he picks me up and then sits on the bed with me on his lap.
“Sorry Ito I’m just ruining this. It’s just watching you in there with Mikhail; I never met my father.” I say as if that explains everything. He holds me even closer to him and for a long time neither one of us says anything.
Then I just get up and wipe away the last of my tears wondering slightly why Mikhail hasn’t wondered where his father is and come looking. “Sorry about that.” I say and then look over at the clock on Ito’s nightstand seeing that I need to get over to Isaac’s soon. “Uhm I need to get ready, sorry I have to go.” I say and Ito frowns at me. I quickly kiss his lips but he holds me there making out with me. Unluckily for us that’s when Mikhail finally walks in.
“Dad?” I pull away completely and then grab my bag biting my lower lip.
“I’m going to change now.” I say excusing myself and quickly moving to Ito’s bathroom. I can’t help my actions, I have no idea how to react to Mikhail walking in and seeing us kiss. I change clothes figuring that it is best to leave Ito to talk to his son on his own. I brush out my blonde hair once again thinking how I really need to get it trimmed and my dark green eyes are looking slightly bloodshot right now. I splash some water on my face trying to get rid of the redness and the bloodshot look in my eyes. Then I look at my outfit: I’m wearing skintight jeans and a plain long sleeved dark green shirt.
I stand by the door for a few seconds then finally open it and walk out of the bathroom and slowly back to Ito’s room. But neither Ito nor Mikhail are there. “Looking for me?” I hear Ito ask and I turn around to see him. “If you were expecting some big freak out then you’re a few years overdue. Mikhail has seen me kiss boys before.” He tells me and I grin blushing slightly then he notices that I’m dressed and ready to go. “You’re still leaving aren’t you?” He says and I smile and nod slightly.
“I told you last night I have to, it’s Jesse’s birthday. I’ll see you soon though ok.” I tell him back and put my socks and shoes on. He smiles and nods then pulls me to him and kisses me again lightly and quickly this time.
“K. Have fun.” He tells me and I grin just nodding to him. I grab up my bag and leave kissing Ito very lightly at the door. I drive to Isaac’s house thinking about all that happened with Ito and at the same time thinking about Jesse and wondering how I am going to keep this going with both of them for much longer. I park at Isaac’s house seeing the cars of a few of my other friends’. I leave my bag in the car and walk to Isaac’s front door. I let myself in not bothering with even knocking on the door since I know they are expecting me. I see Will first; he stands there in the front room rearranging how the couch is to make more room on the floor. His greenish gray eyes meet mine and his lips open once they do.
“Oh hey, Kev, help me move this.” He tells me not wasting time with greeting me and without a response I move to the other end of the couch and do as he says. The couch is a bit heavy so once we move it I let out a large breath. “Thanks, but I think Isaac needs some help in the kitchen.” He tells me laughing a little and I grimace half-heartedly.
“That’s women’s work.” I groan and he laughs some more. I know I don’t mean what I just said but around all my friends I just can’t help but say things like that. I walk into the kitchen though and see Isaac there, sticking a pizza into the oven, the take out kind. “Hey Isaac.” I say and he turns and looks at me giving me a full view of his lithe body and the soft dark brown hair that covers his eyes and most of the time all of his face. I slouch up against the wall watching him.
“You’re late.” He states bluntly and I just shrug. “You’re going to have to bring Jesse here.” He tells me finally looking over at me and I whine a little at that.
“That was supposed to be Phillip’s job.” I say and Isaac shrugs at that.
“Well everyone else is a little behind because you weren’t here earlier; so now it’s your job. Have fun and don’t go and blow it.” He tells me and I sigh.
“K, anything else?” I ask somehow knowing that’s not all.
“Yeah we need cups and soda, you got enough money for that?” I nod to him and then he just goes on talking. “K then go get those things and when you get back it should be good enough timing for you to go get Jess.” He tells me and I nod then head back out the door. I drive to a nearby grocery store and pick up plastic cups and around four two-liters of soda because there are going to be somewhere between fifteen to twenty people there including girls so I know better then to not get enough and have to come back later.
Speaking of which I know that there’s a very good chance that some of the girls will be there by the time I get back and also that a lot of them are going to be hitting on Jesse. Thinking that makes me worried a little because I’m half sure Jess will ignore all of them because of me. It amazes me more that I am a little protective of Jesse not wanting the girls to hit on him.
I drive back to Isaac’s and drop off the drinks and cups noticing vaguely that the girls have shown up and then I get back in my car and drive to Jesse’s. Then again I’m also thinking that Jess is going to start hitting on me seeing as I’m going to have to get him in my car and not tell him where we are going. I knock on the front door this time and smiling Jesse’s mom just lets me in and yells Jesse’s name calling him down. Jess sees me and smiles. “Hey what’s up?” He asks seeming happy to see me and I grin at him.
“You doing anything?” I ask and he smiles wider and shakes his head. “Good come on we’re leaving.” I tell him and he grins wider and shrugs his eyebrows slightly.
“Hey Mom I’m going out ok.” Jess says to her and she just nods. Then the both of us leave climbing into my car and as soon as we get in the car he leans over to me and kisses me on the lips. “Where are we going?” He asks and I just grin at him.
“That’s a secret.” I say knowing somehow that Jess is going to think the party was my idea when really it was Isaac’s. Jesse just grins at my answer though and links his fingers with mine once I start up the car. I don’t bother with taking out of the way roads instead I just drive straight to Isaac’s house acting completely normal. Jesse looks at me a little confused.
“This is the big secret?” He asks and I smile already having a solution for that.
“Nah, we’re just stopping here for a little while. Come on.” I tell him already getting out of the car myself. Jess shrugs and gets out of the car himself seeming to believe me. I knock on the door three times then wait for a few seconds personally knowing that no one is going to answer. I knock again twice this time but then when still no one answers I look to Jess and shrug. I try the knob and of course it easily opens. All the lights are off and the living room is completely dark.
“That’s weird.” Jess says then he flicks on the light and everyone jumps out from various places screaming ‘Surprise.’ I grin watching Jesse’s face light up and in watching I also find that I have the urge to kiss him. The party goes off with out a hitch and with several of the girls hitting on Jesse. He doesn’t exactly shine them on though instead he flirts right back but with occasional winks and glances at me assuring me that he doesn’t really mean it. Though when he actually kisses Gabby, a brunette that hangs around Will a lot, it ticks me off a bit making me have to leave for a second to calm down. Other then that though, it’s not that bad.
By the end of the night Jesse is a little drunk as are quite a number of the other people there and I myself am a bit tipsy. Jesse and I get in my car and I drive back to his house glad that his mom won’t be there seeing as she called him at the party and said so. We stumble slightly into his house and to his room; my hands are on him before the both of us hit the bed. “Mhmm you’re so hot Jess.” I tell him kissing his lips messily and he kisses me back intensely.
I guess the alcohol emboldens him because his hand slides into my pants grabbing my dick and pulling on it. “Kevin fuck me please, please fuck me.” He tells me stroking my dick even more and making me moan loudly. I practically rip his clothes off of him and kiss his neck all over even as he strips me as well. Unthinking I don’t even bother to prep him instead I just thrust right into him and he makes a noise somewhere between a moan and a yelp and kisses me deeply.
I taste the alcohol heavily on his lips and tongue. “You’re so drunk.” I say laughing even as I say it and thrusting into him enjoying how tight he is around me. I lean down to kiss his lips my lips landing on his cheek instead and I realize I’m a bit drunker then I thought. He just moans grabbing my hips and slamming me into him. Yet he laughs slightly as well.
“You’re drunk.” He echoes and we both laugh a little but then get too caught up in me moving in and out of him to say anything. I finish up a bit earlier then I would like another lovely effect of the alcohol but neither one of us seems to mind, as we lie there dozing off from the alcohol and the post orgasm bliss. We fall asleep easily but not without one last sentiment from Jesse, “I love you.” He tells me and taken in by the bliss and the alcohol I carelessly repeat the words back to him.
“I love you too Jesse.”
***
I wake up with a slight headache and the remembrance of my words to Jesse. The memory gives me a bigger headache as I try to figure out whether or not I really meant it although I know at least part of me does. Though I also know that Jesse was quite a bit drunker then I was so I’m half hoping he won’t remember it or that he will be completely hung over. As Jesse’s eyes open very slowly he quickly squeezes them shut again. “Headache?” I ask him lightly and then for some reason I kiss him on the lips softly.
“Yeah, don’t talk so loud. I think I drank too much.” He complains and I laugh lightly.
“You did drink too much.” I whisper to him lightly. “Though it was kind of funny watching you drain that bottle of rum.” I tell him and he just smiles and pulls me to him.
“Well if I remember right I think what happened after the party was a lot more fun.” He tells me and I grin at him wondering just how much he remembers about after. Still I act calmly and kiss his lips again.
“That was fun.” I agree and he grins very widely at me and holds me very tightly to him.
“I love you.” He tells me and knowing he does remember that makes me a little weary. I smile a little awkwardly at him but I don’t repeat the line back. “What’s wrong?” He asks me seeming not quite as happy any more.
“Sorry, about that. I was drunk, Jesse.” I tell him using that mainly as an excuse. His eyes flare a bit not mad really just kind of disappointed.
“Don’t worry about it.” He tells me sounding a little angry but it seems that he is more mad at himself for believing that I would change just for him. Jesse gets up and as soon as he does he falls to the ground. I’m guessing it’s from his lack of balance due to alcohol and probably also due to how rough I was with the sex last night. I quickly get off the bed and help him up not caring that both of us are still naked. I pull him back to the bed against his struggles.
“Jesse I didn’t mean it like that. I mean I like you a lot but I just don’t know if I love you.” I tell him thinking to myself more so about Ito and how I don’t want to tell either one of them that I love them because that wouldn’t be right to be saying I love them and still be dating the other one. Jess still doesn’t even look at me though and I should have guessed he wouldn’t accept that answer. I slip my hand under his chin and pull his face toward me making him look me in the eye. “Jess please say something.” I tell him and then he actually looks me in the eye and I notice he is crying a little.
“I should have known. That’s all, you always do this, Kevin, to all of them.” He tells me and I sigh knowing it would come down to this.
“Jesse it’s not like that.”
“Really? Then what’s it like? It’s just a game to you, you don’t care about me.” He says and at that I pull him to me kissing his lips deeply.
“I do care about you Jess that’s not it.” I tell him but then the look in his eyes change like he made a decision.
“It’s him, isn’t it? You care about him more.” He accuses me and without even asking I know he is talking about Ito.
“Jess this doesn’t have to do with Ito this has to do with you and me.” I tell him but my voice doesn’t seem entirely convinced and neither does Jesse.
“Then why are you still seeing him? I know you are Kev. If you care so much about me then why would you want to hurt me by being with him?” He asks and by this point he is making me a little angry so I don’t think before I answer.
“Because I don’t want to hurt either of you!” I all but yell at him and I feel tears streaming down my face. “I like both of you Jesse. I can’t decide, I’m stuck. Jess please don’t force me to choose ok. Okay?” I say knowing my eyes are long past bloodshot and Jesse is still looking at me right in the eye. Then at the same exact moment we just fall into hugging each other holding each other so tight as I wonder how he and Ito can make me cry so easily and so much.