Chapter 4:
After my little experiment I wouldn't say I'm really more at ease but I am more enticed by being with Will. So I decide to actually contact him even though I know I'm not going to see him in person for a while. The only thing is that I'm not sure if I should call or text or message him on facebook. I shake my head a little but there's actually quite a lot of things I want to say without him interrupting me. So I decide to go with the facebook option since it's the easiest to leave a long message and adjust as my thoughts go. I grab my laptop and log into my facebook account going onto the messages. Once I'm there though it's harder to think of what I want to say. So I start simple.
Hey Will, I know you just left but I figured I would write you because a lot of things have been on my mind. I really liked having you over yesterday. Even though we didn't do anything. Speaking of which I'm kind of curious about a few things. You know that I haven't actually been with a guy before and I know sort of what happens. I was wondering though since you are more experienced if you have a preference on you know bottoming or what not? Sorry if I sound like an idiot but this is all new to me. I'm not sure how I feel about it and maybe it's a non-issue all together. Ok so I'm going to stop typing now while I still have some sanity left. If you don't feel like answering I understand.
Well it's not perfect but I force myself to hit the send button before I can think on it. Still I get off of my laptop after that because I'm not that eager to see if he answers right now because I'm a bit unsure if I should have written all of that to begin with. Also since I have facebook on my phone it isn't like I won't know right when he messages me anyway. I take a shower and change my bedsheets again. Right when I get out of the shower though I hear my phone go off saying I have a message. Still I delay looking at it as I get dressed and head into the kitchen to find something to eat. I can't decide what to eat though and I open my phone to see I have a message from Will that is about as long as mine.
Jeremy, you constantly make me laugh and it's like you don't even mean to. I know you're nervous, but I think this is actually a good idea. If we are more open then there is a better chance of all of this working out. So I'm going to try to answer your questions to the best of my ability, in return I hope that you will do the same. When it comes to sex I'm pretty easy going; I like both bottoming and topping. I'm not going to push you into anything, but I would really like you to keep an open mind and at least give it a shot. So at least think about it a little more. By the way I really liked yesterday too. I can't wait to see you again.
I bite my lip as I read over the message for the third time before looking in the fridge for food again. Then I see some left over Chinese food from about a week ago so I figure if I don't eat it now then I should toss it. I grab the Styrofoam box and empty it out on to a plate seeing the mixed fried rice and chow mien. It doesn't necessarily look appetizing but it will work since it means I don't have to cook. I toss the food in the microwave and look at the message again. I don't really know how to reply to it right now though. The fact that he wants me to think about bottoming though kind of makes this harder on me. I'm not really sure how I feel about having anything up there. It seems like it would hurt. Still with the amount of gay guys that do it and like it; it can't be that bad. It has to be pleasurable in some way so maybe I'm just scaring myself for no reason. I don't think I'm ready to try that out just yet though. I sit down with my food in front of the television and decide to write him back later after I've had some time to think about everything.
The tv distracts me for a little while but my mind is still firmly on Will. So I decide to try writing him again. So I will think about all of that, but I am going to change the subject for now. You left your movies here by the way. So I guess you'll have to come see me again when you get back. So should we set up a date for when you get back? Maybe go out for dinner or a movie? I send the message not able to think of much else to say. Then I start to wonder more about doing something more with him. I try to push it out of my head though I'm unable to until I hear another chime saying I have a message.
That sounds good, but you do know I won't be back for another three weeks. I already miss you. Do you think maybe I could call you tonight? I'm still on the road right now, but I'd like to hear your voice again. So can I call when I stop for the night? He asks me and I grin thinking this is all a little crazy. All the same I want to hear his voice again too.
Yes, I'll talk to you then. I write simply deciding I need to do something else. I clean up the small mess from my leftovers and look around my apartment. It's still clean since it was only a couple of days ago that I cleaned up. Then I look over and see my bucket of metal rings. I laugh a little thinking of how long it has been since I actually took time to enjoy myself. I walk over to the bucket and grab it and the pairs of needle nose pliers next to it. I take the heavy bucket over to my couch and sit down. I don't have a current project started but I have all of my rings done already. I used to make more chain mail but I haven't done it lately. I've just been busy. I used to make a lot of chain mail shirts and hoods then go to Renaissance faires and sell them. It was decent money to support going to the faires and all the little trinkets I picked up along the way. I open the bucket of all the tiny metal rings and grab a few laying them on the coffee table.
I start making a simple chain and keep going until it loosely fits around my shoulders. I start by trailing the rings up constructing the shoulders and neck hole of the shirt it takes time to do it and slowly I fall into the rhythm of working with my hands. It's soothing to just take my mind off of everything but where the next ring should go. The nice thing is that the work is forgiving as well so it isn't a big deal when I'm a little unsure of myself. In fact I get so distracted that I don't even notice how late it's getting until I hear my phone chime in a text message. I pick it up to see it's already ten at night still I see that it is Will and of course I look at it. So is it too late to call you? I smile and decide to just call him back instead of continuing to text for a while. I have to admit I get pretty nervous as I listen to it ring.
After the third ring I almost hang up but then I hear his voice. “Hey, I'm glad you're still awake. I hope I didn't keep you up waiting too long.” He tells me his voice soft and flowing and strangely it relaxes me right when I hear it.
“No it's fine. I got distracted I didn't even realize how late it was until I got your text message.” I tell him even as I look over my work trying to look for any mistakes.
“Distracted huh? What were you doing? Or is it more along the lines of what you were mentioning earlier?” He asks and I'm a little amazed to feel my cheeks heat up a bit.
“Nothing like that. Actually I was just picking up an old hobby.” I say simply but Will doesn't just leave it at that.
“An old hobby? Is it something embarrassing like knitting? I mean you're already a hair dresser I don't think it can be that much worse.” He tells me and I know he is joking but it's still a little hard on me.
“Um, no it's not embarrassing. I make chain mail. I used to do it more and sell them at Renaissance faires. So no it's not something girly like knitting.” I say a little peeved because I've always been teased for being girly and it strikes kind of a chord with me.
“Ok, sorry I wasn't trying to make you mad. That actually sounds really cool. So do you sword fight or something at these things? Or do you leave the fighting to other people and just make the armor?” He asks and I grin again thinking of all the fun times I've had at faires.
“I've tried some of the fighting but I'm not very good at it. The only thing I was remotely good at was archery. I've made some good money from selling the chain mail though and it's fun to go try different things. I joined up with a group that traveled to a few of the faires once for a few months. One of the guys in it was teaching me to contact juggle but I wasn't very good at that either.” I tell him and honestly I kind of miss all of it.
“That sounds cool. We'll have to go to one sometime. You can show me around while I look like a dumb tourist. It'll be fun.” He tells me and I bite my lip a little.
“That sounds a lot like a date.” I say trying to not sound as nervous as I feel.
“It does, doesn't it. It's good thing we've already had a couple. It sounded like you were wanting to set up a date for when I come home too. I'm not trying to push you into anything Jeremy. It just sounded like fun.” He explains and it seems like he just keeps stepping on little fault lines.
“You're right, and maybe one day we will go to one. It could be fun. Maybe I'm just a little touchy tonight. So do you have any embarrassing hobbies? Maybe you could make me laugh a little.” I say lying back on the couch to get more comfortable.
“Well let's see. I play online games way too much. I used to play more console games, but it's hard to play those on the road. Other than that I occasionally fish and hunt. I like to go camping and hiking. And sometimes when I'm out camping in the middle of nowhere I like to go skinny dipping. Are any of those the embarrassing tidbit you were hoping for?” He asks and I feel my cheeks heating up again at him mentioning that he likes to go skinny dipping.
“Not exactly but good to know. Renaissance faires are much better when you stay for more than one day so that always includes some camping. I think we might skip on the skinny dipping though.” I tell him and he laughs. “Well maybe one day in a private lake.” I say hoping to make him laugh again and I’m pleased when he does.
“Maybe I'll just settle for getting you naked then. Or at least a little less dressed.” He tells me and I have to bite my lip again because I'm not sure if I'm getting turned on or just really embarrassed.
“You're in a good mood tonight.” I say not sure what else to say.
“I am, it's nice to have someone to talk to. I'm sorry if I'm going a little too far for you. I really like you. Besides you were the one who brought up sex before.” He tells and I grin a little.
“Yea, I did but I just was curious about a few things. I want to know what I'm getting into here. I thought it might help to know some specifics.” I tell him and the conversation turns a little more serious.
“Well, I'd be happy to answer any questions that you have. I just can't promise that I won't get a little turned on talking about all of this.” He says and I grin a little.
“I think I'm good on questions for now. I've got enough to think about right now.” I say not sure how I feel about talking about all of this now that it has come up again. It's a lot harder then just writing about it.
“Did you want to talk about any of it? I was just a little curious what brought it all up to begin with.” He says and I kind of start to wonder if I should have talked to Jamie about all of this to begin with.
“After yesterday I was kind of curious about everything because I was really turned on. I thought it might help to learn a little more. I was talking to a friend of mine and he suggested I watch some gay porn.” I tell him feeling extremely awkward right now.
“Did it help?” He asks and I grin a little thinking of how hard I orgasmed before.
“Sort of. Well it helped physically a little but mentally it just made me have more questions.” I tell him kind of wondering where this is going.
“So you liked it then? It turned you on?” He asks and it sounds like this is turning him on a little.
“Yea it did. I don't know how I feel about the actual act though. It seems like it would hurt.” I tell him tying to talk about it without being too explicit.
“Well I won't lie to you. It can hurt, a lot. As long as it's slow and gentle it can feel really good too. It takes a little getting used to though.” He says and I grin a little awkwardly feeling a bit strange. I can't bring myself to say anything for a little while. “Jeremy are you still there?” He asks and I laugh a little but it is definitely forced.
“Yea, I'm here but all of this is just a little hard for me to talk about.” I tell him honestly and this time Will doesn't talk for a few seconds.
“Alright, well we should probably get some sleep anyway. It's after eleven now and I'm sure we both have things to do tomorrow. I'll try to call you again tomorrow if that's ok.” He tells me and I find myself nodding a little.
“That sounds good. I'll talk to you later.” I say sitting up and stretching out my legs a little.
“Goodbye Jeremy.” He says and all of this almost seems like we are really a couple.
“Good night Will.” I answer and them we hang up. I find I'm smiling as I stand up and walk to my bed. I just feel content, in a way that I haven't in a long time. It's great to have a real conversation. Plus it's nice that he actually seemed interested in going to a faire with me. For the first time in a while I am able to fall asleep peacefully.
It isn't until I'm at work the next day that I start to think more about sleeping with Will. He definitely seems like he wants me to at least try bottoming and that thought is still more than a little scary. In fact I can't think of much else until I'm about to leave and I see a familiar face waiting for me. Jamie stands in the lobby just smiling at me and I halfheartedly grin back at him. He waves a little as I walk over to him and then he pulls me into a hug when I get closer. “So I was thinking about what we talked about and I thought I could help you out a little more.” He tells me with a smirk on his face and I look at him suspiciously. “What I'm not going to touch you! I just want to help make all of this a little easier on you.” He quickly says clearly trying to defend himself but that only makes me more nervous. I quickly push him out the door so that none of my coworkers will hear him.
“I don't think I'm going to like this idea.” I tell him doubtfully but then Jamie pouts a little.
“I just want to take you shopping.” He says and at first that just confuses me more.
“How does shopping have anything to do with what we were talking about?” I ask and Jamie just starts full on laughing.
“It helps when you go to the right kind of store.” He tells me with a wink and then I get it.
“Oh no, I am not going to a porn shop with you.” I tell him loudly, but of course it just makes Jamie laugh louder.
“Come on I swear I'll try not to embarrass you.” He asks taking my hand and trying to lead me to my car. I sigh and look at him again.
“Jamie. I don't think I need this kind of help from you.” I tell him and Jamie sighs as well taking the time to actually be a little more serious.
“Ok, have you talked to him since? Did you ask if he is a bottom?” He asks me and I bite my lip not sure if I really want to have this conversation in my work parking lot. I push him forward again getting into my car but not starting the engine.
“I did talk to him and he said he likes both.” I say softly but it's clear by the look on Jamie's face that he heard me.
“Well then let me help. I just want to show you a few things that might help you figure out what you like. I'm not taking you to a fetish shop or something. It's a pretty low key place and I swear I won't do anything inappropriate.” He tells me looking very serious again and I sigh.
“Fine, but when I say we are leaving then it is right at that moment.” I tell him and Jamie grins at me clearly pleased with himself. Then I look him over again and wonder how he got here on his own seeing as he still can't drive with his cast on his leg and he isn't with Scott. “How did you get down here anyway?” I ask him and he grins with a little shrug.
“I took a bus there was a stop a couple of blocks away. I just wanted to get out of the house.” He tells me and I start to wonder if everything is really going as well with Scott as it seems. Still I start up the car and let him direct me half way around town until we stop in front of a shop with lingerie mannequins in the front window. It almost scares me away on it's own but I follow Jamie into the shop. Jamie walks right in like he's clearly been here before and I awkwardly stand right by the door for a moment just looking at all of it. I'm not really that into these kind of places I've never had a reason to go into one before. So the wall of dildos scares me a bit as I keep looking and see lingerie and a whole area of DVDs. My eyes find Jamie again and he is by a slightly less humiliating section of condoms and lubricants. He looks at me as well and motioning with his head for me to come over to him.
“So the main thing is for you to use a lot of lube. There are certain ones that are more intended for anal and they work better.” He tells me and I know my cheeks are bright red right now. It doesn't help when Jamie grabs a bottle and hands it to me with a smile. I bite my lip taking it from him but then he starts to pull me toward the aforementioned wall of fake dicks. I grab his arm before we quite get all the way there and glare at him.
“Ok, I don't think we need to go over there.” I tell him with a meaningful look and Jamie just sighs.
“It will help I swear. You said this guy is gone a lot right. That means it might be good for you to be a little more relaxed. If you have already done some things on your own you won't be so tense. Plus once you have done things with him you'll be able to pleasure yourself a little better when he's gone. Don't worry about the price I'm paying. I still owe you some money for letting me stay with you.” He tells me and again pulls me toward the obscene display. I sigh but reluctantly follow him. My eyes are glued to the floor and after a while Jamie seems to find one he likes as he grabs it off the wall. I look up still mortified to see what he has picked out. Well it isn't very big at least but it's kind of weirdly shaped. It isn't one of the dildos that very obviously resembles a cock. It also isn't too strange of a color just a plain white. I guess it isn't too scary looking compared to some of the others. Jamie looks at me clearly expecting me to say something.
“Alright but just those two things. Then no more helping. I can figure this out on my own.” I tell him and Jamie grins heading over to the sales counter. I just make my way outside and lean against my car. I am really over my head here. A few minutes later Jamie walks out with a plain black plastic bag and grins at me as he gets into my car. “So do I need to get you home then? I'm sure you have much more interesting things to do than harass me.” I tell him pointedly and Jamie laughs at me.
“Okay, but I was only trying to help. You can take me home now. By the way I get to stop using my arm sling tomorrow.” He tells me and I smile at him.
“So you'll start DJing again soon then?” I ask knowing he can't wait to get back out there.
“Yea I'll probably have something set in a few weeks.” He says with a grin.
“Let me know I'll be sure to come for it.” I tell him and then we stop in front of Scott's place. Jamie grins and places the bag on my lap.
“I'll let you know. Enjoy!” And with that he is off walking into the house. I shake my head a little and head home. I don't think I'll be able to look at the bag for a while much less use anything that he just bought me.
Hey Will, I know you just left but I figured I would write you because a lot of things have been on my mind. I really liked having you over yesterday. Even though we didn't do anything. Speaking of which I'm kind of curious about a few things. You know that I haven't actually been with a guy before and I know sort of what happens. I was wondering though since you are more experienced if you have a preference on you know bottoming or what not? Sorry if I sound like an idiot but this is all new to me. I'm not sure how I feel about it and maybe it's a non-issue all together. Ok so I'm going to stop typing now while I still have some sanity left. If you don't feel like answering I understand.
Well it's not perfect but I force myself to hit the send button before I can think on it. Still I get off of my laptop after that because I'm not that eager to see if he answers right now because I'm a bit unsure if I should have written all of that to begin with. Also since I have facebook on my phone it isn't like I won't know right when he messages me anyway. I take a shower and change my bedsheets again. Right when I get out of the shower though I hear my phone go off saying I have a message. Still I delay looking at it as I get dressed and head into the kitchen to find something to eat. I can't decide what to eat though and I open my phone to see I have a message from Will that is about as long as mine.
Jeremy, you constantly make me laugh and it's like you don't even mean to. I know you're nervous, but I think this is actually a good idea. If we are more open then there is a better chance of all of this working out. So I'm going to try to answer your questions to the best of my ability, in return I hope that you will do the same. When it comes to sex I'm pretty easy going; I like both bottoming and topping. I'm not going to push you into anything, but I would really like you to keep an open mind and at least give it a shot. So at least think about it a little more. By the way I really liked yesterday too. I can't wait to see you again.
I bite my lip as I read over the message for the third time before looking in the fridge for food again. Then I see some left over Chinese food from about a week ago so I figure if I don't eat it now then I should toss it. I grab the Styrofoam box and empty it out on to a plate seeing the mixed fried rice and chow mien. It doesn't necessarily look appetizing but it will work since it means I don't have to cook. I toss the food in the microwave and look at the message again. I don't really know how to reply to it right now though. The fact that he wants me to think about bottoming though kind of makes this harder on me. I'm not really sure how I feel about having anything up there. It seems like it would hurt. Still with the amount of gay guys that do it and like it; it can't be that bad. It has to be pleasurable in some way so maybe I'm just scaring myself for no reason. I don't think I'm ready to try that out just yet though. I sit down with my food in front of the television and decide to write him back later after I've had some time to think about everything.
The tv distracts me for a little while but my mind is still firmly on Will. So I decide to try writing him again. So I will think about all of that, but I am going to change the subject for now. You left your movies here by the way. So I guess you'll have to come see me again when you get back. So should we set up a date for when you get back? Maybe go out for dinner or a movie? I send the message not able to think of much else to say. Then I start to wonder more about doing something more with him. I try to push it out of my head though I'm unable to until I hear another chime saying I have a message.
That sounds good, but you do know I won't be back for another three weeks. I already miss you. Do you think maybe I could call you tonight? I'm still on the road right now, but I'd like to hear your voice again. So can I call when I stop for the night? He asks me and I grin thinking this is all a little crazy. All the same I want to hear his voice again too.
Yes, I'll talk to you then. I write simply deciding I need to do something else. I clean up the small mess from my leftovers and look around my apartment. It's still clean since it was only a couple of days ago that I cleaned up. Then I look over and see my bucket of metal rings. I laugh a little thinking of how long it has been since I actually took time to enjoy myself. I walk over to the bucket and grab it and the pairs of needle nose pliers next to it. I take the heavy bucket over to my couch and sit down. I don't have a current project started but I have all of my rings done already. I used to make more chain mail but I haven't done it lately. I've just been busy. I used to make a lot of chain mail shirts and hoods then go to Renaissance faires and sell them. It was decent money to support going to the faires and all the little trinkets I picked up along the way. I open the bucket of all the tiny metal rings and grab a few laying them on the coffee table.
I start making a simple chain and keep going until it loosely fits around my shoulders. I start by trailing the rings up constructing the shoulders and neck hole of the shirt it takes time to do it and slowly I fall into the rhythm of working with my hands. It's soothing to just take my mind off of everything but where the next ring should go. The nice thing is that the work is forgiving as well so it isn't a big deal when I'm a little unsure of myself. In fact I get so distracted that I don't even notice how late it's getting until I hear my phone chime in a text message. I pick it up to see it's already ten at night still I see that it is Will and of course I look at it. So is it too late to call you? I smile and decide to just call him back instead of continuing to text for a while. I have to admit I get pretty nervous as I listen to it ring.
After the third ring I almost hang up but then I hear his voice. “Hey, I'm glad you're still awake. I hope I didn't keep you up waiting too long.” He tells me his voice soft and flowing and strangely it relaxes me right when I hear it.
“No it's fine. I got distracted I didn't even realize how late it was until I got your text message.” I tell him even as I look over my work trying to look for any mistakes.
“Distracted huh? What were you doing? Or is it more along the lines of what you were mentioning earlier?” He asks and I'm a little amazed to feel my cheeks heat up a bit.
“Nothing like that. Actually I was just picking up an old hobby.” I say simply but Will doesn't just leave it at that.
“An old hobby? Is it something embarrassing like knitting? I mean you're already a hair dresser I don't think it can be that much worse.” He tells me and I know he is joking but it's still a little hard on me.
“Um, no it's not embarrassing. I make chain mail. I used to do it more and sell them at Renaissance faires. So no it's not something girly like knitting.” I say a little peeved because I've always been teased for being girly and it strikes kind of a chord with me.
“Ok, sorry I wasn't trying to make you mad. That actually sounds really cool. So do you sword fight or something at these things? Or do you leave the fighting to other people and just make the armor?” He asks and I grin again thinking of all the fun times I've had at faires.
“I've tried some of the fighting but I'm not very good at it. The only thing I was remotely good at was archery. I've made some good money from selling the chain mail though and it's fun to go try different things. I joined up with a group that traveled to a few of the faires once for a few months. One of the guys in it was teaching me to contact juggle but I wasn't very good at that either.” I tell him and honestly I kind of miss all of it.
“That sounds cool. We'll have to go to one sometime. You can show me around while I look like a dumb tourist. It'll be fun.” He tells me and I bite my lip a little.
“That sounds a lot like a date.” I say trying to not sound as nervous as I feel.
“It does, doesn't it. It's good thing we've already had a couple. It sounded like you were wanting to set up a date for when I come home too. I'm not trying to push you into anything Jeremy. It just sounded like fun.” He explains and it seems like he just keeps stepping on little fault lines.
“You're right, and maybe one day we will go to one. It could be fun. Maybe I'm just a little touchy tonight. So do you have any embarrassing hobbies? Maybe you could make me laugh a little.” I say lying back on the couch to get more comfortable.
“Well let's see. I play online games way too much. I used to play more console games, but it's hard to play those on the road. Other than that I occasionally fish and hunt. I like to go camping and hiking. And sometimes when I'm out camping in the middle of nowhere I like to go skinny dipping. Are any of those the embarrassing tidbit you were hoping for?” He asks and I feel my cheeks heating up again at him mentioning that he likes to go skinny dipping.
“Not exactly but good to know. Renaissance faires are much better when you stay for more than one day so that always includes some camping. I think we might skip on the skinny dipping though.” I tell him and he laughs. “Well maybe one day in a private lake.” I say hoping to make him laugh again and I’m pleased when he does.
“Maybe I'll just settle for getting you naked then. Or at least a little less dressed.” He tells me and I have to bite my lip again because I'm not sure if I'm getting turned on or just really embarrassed.
“You're in a good mood tonight.” I say not sure what else to say.
“I am, it's nice to have someone to talk to. I'm sorry if I'm going a little too far for you. I really like you. Besides you were the one who brought up sex before.” He tells and I grin a little.
“Yea, I did but I just was curious about a few things. I want to know what I'm getting into here. I thought it might help to know some specifics.” I tell him and the conversation turns a little more serious.
“Well, I'd be happy to answer any questions that you have. I just can't promise that I won't get a little turned on talking about all of this.” He says and I grin a little.
“I think I'm good on questions for now. I've got enough to think about right now.” I say not sure how I feel about talking about all of this now that it has come up again. It's a lot harder then just writing about it.
“Did you want to talk about any of it? I was just a little curious what brought it all up to begin with.” He says and I kind of start to wonder if I should have talked to Jamie about all of this to begin with.
“After yesterday I was kind of curious about everything because I was really turned on. I thought it might help to learn a little more. I was talking to a friend of mine and he suggested I watch some gay porn.” I tell him feeling extremely awkward right now.
“Did it help?” He asks and I grin a little thinking of how hard I orgasmed before.
“Sort of. Well it helped physically a little but mentally it just made me have more questions.” I tell him kind of wondering where this is going.
“So you liked it then? It turned you on?” He asks and it sounds like this is turning him on a little.
“Yea it did. I don't know how I feel about the actual act though. It seems like it would hurt.” I tell him tying to talk about it without being too explicit.
“Well I won't lie to you. It can hurt, a lot. As long as it's slow and gentle it can feel really good too. It takes a little getting used to though.” He says and I grin a little awkwardly feeling a bit strange. I can't bring myself to say anything for a little while. “Jeremy are you still there?” He asks and I laugh a little but it is definitely forced.
“Yea, I'm here but all of this is just a little hard for me to talk about.” I tell him honestly and this time Will doesn't talk for a few seconds.
“Alright, well we should probably get some sleep anyway. It's after eleven now and I'm sure we both have things to do tomorrow. I'll try to call you again tomorrow if that's ok.” He tells me and I find myself nodding a little.
“That sounds good. I'll talk to you later.” I say sitting up and stretching out my legs a little.
“Goodbye Jeremy.” He says and all of this almost seems like we are really a couple.
“Good night Will.” I answer and them we hang up. I find I'm smiling as I stand up and walk to my bed. I just feel content, in a way that I haven't in a long time. It's great to have a real conversation. Plus it's nice that he actually seemed interested in going to a faire with me. For the first time in a while I am able to fall asleep peacefully.
It isn't until I'm at work the next day that I start to think more about sleeping with Will. He definitely seems like he wants me to at least try bottoming and that thought is still more than a little scary. In fact I can't think of much else until I'm about to leave and I see a familiar face waiting for me. Jamie stands in the lobby just smiling at me and I halfheartedly grin back at him. He waves a little as I walk over to him and then he pulls me into a hug when I get closer. “So I was thinking about what we talked about and I thought I could help you out a little more.” He tells me with a smirk on his face and I look at him suspiciously. “What I'm not going to touch you! I just want to help make all of this a little easier on you.” He quickly says clearly trying to defend himself but that only makes me more nervous. I quickly push him out the door so that none of my coworkers will hear him.
“I don't think I'm going to like this idea.” I tell him doubtfully but then Jamie pouts a little.
“I just want to take you shopping.” He says and at first that just confuses me more.
“How does shopping have anything to do with what we were talking about?” I ask and Jamie just starts full on laughing.
“It helps when you go to the right kind of store.” He tells me with a wink and then I get it.
“Oh no, I am not going to a porn shop with you.” I tell him loudly, but of course it just makes Jamie laugh louder.
“Come on I swear I'll try not to embarrass you.” He asks taking my hand and trying to lead me to my car. I sigh and look at him again.
“Jamie. I don't think I need this kind of help from you.” I tell him and Jamie sighs as well taking the time to actually be a little more serious.
“Ok, have you talked to him since? Did you ask if he is a bottom?” He asks me and I bite my lip not sure if I really want to have this conversation in my work parking lot. I push him forward again getting into my car but not starting the engine.
“I did talk to him and he said he likes both.” I say softly but it's clear by the look on Jamie's face that he heard me.
“Well then let me help. I just want to show you a few things that might help you figure out what you like. I'm not taking you to a fetish shop or something. It's a pretty low key place and I swear I won't do anything inappropriate.” He tells me looking very serious again and I sigh.
“Fine, but when I say we are leaving then it is right at that moment.” I tell him and Jamie grins at me clearly pleased with himself. Then I look him over again and wonder how he got here on his own seeing as he still can't drive with his cast on his leg and he isn't with Scott. “How did you get down here anyway?” I ask him and he grins with a little shrug.
“I took a bus there was a stop a couple of blocks away. I just wanted to get out of the house.” He tells me and I start to wonder if everything is really going as well with Scott as it seems. Still I start up the car and let him direct me half way around town until we stop in front of a shop with lingerie mannequins in the front window. It almost scares me away on it's own but I follow Jamie into the shop. Jamie walks right in like he's clearly been here before and I awkwardly stand right by the door for a moment just looking at all of it. I'm not really that into these kind of places I've never had a reason to go into one before. So the wall of dildos scares me a bit as I keep looking and see lingerie and a whole area of DVDs. My eyes find Jamie again and he is by a slightly less humiliating section of condoms and lubricants. He looks at me as well and motioning with his head for me to come over to him.
“So the main thing is for you to use a lot of lube. There are certain ones that are more intended for anal and they work better.” He tells me and I know my cheeks are bright red right now. It doesn't help when Jamie grabs a bottle and hands it to me with a smile. I bite my lip taking it from him but then he starts to pull me toward the aforementioned wall of fake dicks. I grab his arm before we quite get all the way there and glare at him.
“Ok, I don't think we need to go over there.” I tell him with a meaningful look and Jamie just sighs.
“It will help I swear. You said this guy is gone a lot right. That means it might be good for you to be a little more relaxed. If you have already done some things on your own you won't be so tense. Plus once you have done things with him you'll be able to pleasure yourself a little better when he's gone. Don't worry about the price I'm paying. I still owe you some money for letting me stay with you.” He tells me and again pulls me toward the obscene display. I sigh but reluctantly follow him. My eyes are glued to the floor and after a while Jamie seems to find one he likes as he grabs it off the wall. I look up still mortified to see what he has picked out. Well it isn't very big at least but it's kind of weirdly shaped. It isn't one of the dildos that very obviously resembles a cock. It also isn't too strange of a color just a plain white. I guess it isn't too scary looking compared to some of the others. Jamie looks at me clearly expecting me to say something.
“Alright but just those two things. Then no more helping. I can figure this out on my own.” I tell him and Jamie grins heading over to the sales counter. I just make my way outside and lean against my car. I am really over my head here. A few minutes later Jamie walks out with a plain black plastic bag and grins at me as he gets into my car. “So do I need to get you home then? I'm sure you have much more interesting things to do than harass me.” I tell him pointedly and Jamie laughs at me.
“Okay, but I was only trying to help. You can take me home now. By the way I get to stop using my arm sling tomorrow.” He tells me and I smile at him.
“So you'll start DJing again soon then?” I ask knowing he can't wait to get back out there.
“Yea I'll probably have something set in a few weeks.” He says with a grin.
“Let me know I'll be sure to come for it.” I tell him and then we stop in front of Scott's place. Jamie grins and places the bag on my lap.
“I'll let you know. Enjoy!” And with that he is off walking into the house. I shake my head a little and head home. I don't think I'll be able to look at the bag for a while much less use anything that he just bought me.