Chapter 10
“Mikhail, I-” But he just chuckles at me and speaks again before I can finish my thought let alone talking.
“It is alright, you do not have to say it back. I just want you to know that I love you.” He tells me again and I still have no idea what to say back. His eyes will no longer meet mine and I know that I have to say something back even if it is not those words. His hand cups my chin making me look into his eyes now. “Now look who is clamming up? Relax; this is what we are supposed to be getting to remember.” He tells me softly and I am finally able to speak again.
“Yes I know, and I am glad that you feel that way. I just think it might take me a little longer for me to feel the same way.” I tell him even though I cannot say the word let alone admit that I may feel that way for him as well. He smiles at me and then lowers his lips to mine once more kissing me deeply. I kiss him back but now I am distracted not sure how to feel about how things have progressed between us. So I pull away and lightly look into his eyes. “I think that perhaps we should wait after all. Perhaps we could eat supper together though?” I ask not wanting to push him off completely and it seems to work since he still smiles at me slightly.
“If that is what you want then I would be delighted to join you for dinner. Right now however I think that I need to bathe and I am sure you need to as well.” He tells me and I smile back at him a little more nervous now that he mentioned bathing even if he did not say that he will be naked I still think it.
“Then I will see you later tonight.” I tell him standing up from the couch. Mikhail stands up as well starting to lead me to the door between our rooms. Before I can open the door though he pulls me in for one more kiss. Despite how we have both been pulling away for one reason or another we kiss deeply this time. I slide my tongue into his mouth pulling him closer and then his hands slide down my side until one grabs my butt. I moan remembering how it felt to have his fingers inside of me. His hand massages me deeper before he slides his hand into my pants instead.
I start to breath harder and my hands spasm on his chest. His lips leave mine to trail down my neck sucking on it lightly as his hand slides further down my ass to slide between the cheeks and lightly presses inward. Then he pushes harder forcing his finger into me and it hurts. I pull away from him now even with how turned on I am I just cannot do this right now. “I will see you later.” I tell him quickly as I open the door. He smiles and laughs even as I make my way back into my own chambers. Suddenly I’m not so sure about any of this.
I head to my bathing chambers stripping off my clothes before I even start the water. Taking my clothes off though just draws even more attention to my erect penis. I slide into the half full tub and start to jerk myself off slowly. I think about Mikhail as I pull on my flesh and I start to get more into it moving faster and moaning under my breath. Just as I am about to orgasm Tobias walks into room; at that moment I get even more embarrassed because I do come.
“I apologize.” Tobias quickly yells as he leaves the room as quickly as he entered it. I sigh, thinking of how my day just keeps getting worse with me sexually today. I cover my eyes briefly with my hand.
“Tobias, come back.” I yell softly not sure if I really mean it but he seems to hear me. Tobias walks back into the room with his eyes cast completely toward the ground. “Did you have something to say to me?” I ask him trying not to be too embarrassed myself.
“Yes, Your Highness. Prince Mikhail would like to have dinner with you in his chambers if that is acceptable. I did not realize you were previously engaged at the moment I walked in and I do apologize.” He says all in one quick breath as he keeps his gaze on the floor.
“Please tell Mikhail that that will be fine. And please try to alert me before you walk into my rooms.” I tell him softly trying to make this easier on both of us but he just quickly bows a little and leaves my presence again. I sigh sliding myself deeper into the water and trying to relax.
I cannot get what Mikhail said out of my head. I know that was the whole point of what he has been trying to do. He said he did not see the point of marrying me if we could not be in love but I still feel like I do not know him very well. Part of me also wonders if maybe in some way I led Charles on and if maybe I know him and like him more than I do Mikhail.
I have gotten to know Mikhail better in the past few moons still I think most of what I feel about him might just be lust not love. I have never actually pursued a real relationship with anyone before Mikhail; maybe I am just getting cold feet but I want to know what is possibly out there for me. I think I should talk to Charles.
I get out of the bath and quickly clothe myself in fine attire for dinner with Mikhail later. Instead of going to talk to the man just next door to me though I leave my chamber headed to find Aradia again. When I do find her chain of attendants though, Charles is no longer with them. Rather than ask my sister I turn to another one of the servants and request his whereabouts. The servant tells me that Charles has the rest of the day off and is most likely in his chambers. So I head to the servants’ quarters instead. It isn’t hard for me to find Charles’ room and as I knock on the door I almost wonder what I am doing here at all.
“Your Highness, it is an honor to see you but what is amiss?” Charles asks me with his head lowered from the moment that he saw it was me outside his door.
“I wish to talk to you, may I come in?” I ask him trying to remember that this has nothing to do with rank and everything to do with us just being people. All the same he seems to think it over for a moment before he backs away to let me into his room.
“Am I to assume that this is a personal matter and I make speak freely?” Charles asks me as he shuts the two of us up in his room alone. My eyes take in the bare room and the simple cot in one corner as I try to take in his words as well.
“Yes, I would like for you to speak freely with me, Charles.” I tell him back as I turn to look at him. “Why did not you tell me about your attraction towards me?” I ask him since maybe that is the thing that bothers me the most. Charles sighs and sits on his bed before answering me.
“I remember the first day that I met you. I was ten summers old and you were just four. It was the first real job that I was given at the castle. I protested it wildly. I did not want to have to be your friend; I did not want to have to baby sit a toddler. Then I saw you, and even then I could not deny that you were pretty. We got along very well then, playing together, and I got a bit possessive of you.
“I think the first time I realized that I was attracted to you was when I was when I was nineteen. We went out to the pond by the tree and you said that we should go for a swim. You were just growing into manhood and I could tell that you would be breath taking in a few more years. Once you stripped off your clothing I found myself looking at you and thinking of things that I would like to do with you.” Charles grows quite after that and even though he did not answer my question his words surprise me more than a simple answer of how it would not have been appropriate for him to tell me of his attraction.
“You have been attracted to me for the past seven years, and you never said a word.” I say not even meaning it as a question. Charles just nods though choosing not to answer me.
“I could never have a relationship with you, Gael. You know that. The best I could have hoped for was that we would have had a brief affair that would be overlooked while you were young. All the same though you never showed any attraction toward me or even males in general so I did not push it. Especially when Mikhail showed you seemed so opposed to having a male lover.” He tells me his eyes again lowered to the floor and I do understand but it hurts to think that I never noticed his attraction toward me. I move closer to Charles until I am right in front of him and before I can think better of my actions I lean down and kiss his lips.
Charles moans at the touch and his lips melt under the pressure instantly parting to allow my tongue entrance. Something about how easily he gives in makes me want him even more and I tilt his chin up to allow myself better access to his mouth. “Gael.” My name softly escapes his lips as I pull back trying to control myself. “I should have left.” Charles says softly and I cannot help but to look at him helpless.
“I am glad that you did not.” I tell him softly even though I keep my distance this time.
“You are marrying Prince Mikhail in just a fortnight’s time. It is too late for you to change your mind Gael. You cannot just walk in here and change everything with a kiss.” Charles says standing up and getting in my face. “You need to leave now.” He tells me pushing me toward the door.
“Charles, I came here to talk to you, I do not want to leave. This is not about Mikhail, I need to know how I feel about you and how you feel is important. So please talk to me.” I tell him and Charles just scoffs at me.
“You think that you might actually have feelings for me? If you were ever attracted to me then you would not have behaved so when you found out that your father had engaged you to a man. You never liked me. You are just afraid to marry Mikhail, because despite how you say that you want to marry for love you have no idea what love even is.” Charles tells me and I do not know what to say now. “Just do everyone a favor and go back to Mikhail. He does not need to know that you even came here.” Charles insists pushing me toward the door again. I start to talk again but Charles just pushes me out regardless, using his larger frame to push me out easily. “I do not want to see you here again.” He tells me then he just shuts the door on me.
I sigh trying to calm down as I think about how much time has passed since I said I would meet Mikhail for supper. I head back to our chambers and instead of going to my own I knock on Mikhail’s door. When he opens the door and sees me a smile blooms on his face and I cannot help but to smile back. Still my thoughts remain on Charles. “You are early.” He tells me before he leans closer to kiss me and I feel guilty enough to turn my head making his kiss land on my cheek instead of my lips. “Is something wrong?” He asks me holding the door open further to allow me in so we can be alone.
“A little. May we talk?” I ask him and now I feel a little silly for even going to talk to Charles in the first place. Mikhail leads me over to a sofa motioning for me to sit next to him. Mikhail looks at me curiously as he is waiting for an answer.
“So, should I be worried?” He asks me and I smile at him trying to think of anything to say at all.
“I saw Charles.” I tell him softly and he just grins seeming confused.
“Yes, I saw him too remember? We saw him with Aradia at the stables.” He says seeming to laugh at me almost.
“No, I mean I went to see him in his room just now.” I tell him even as I am still trying to sort out what all of this means to me. He looks me over slowly before he nods.
“Okay, so do you want to tell me what you are thinking?” He asks and it takes me a second to realize that he did not ask me what happened with Charles just what I am thinking.
“I am just confused. I want to marry you, I just feel like I do not know if I want to marry you because I might love you or if I just think that I should marry you for political reasons.” I tell him softly as I cannot look him in the eyes. Mikhail’s voice is anything but soft when he answers sounding a bit hurt and I cannot blame him.
“You do not have to marry me, Gael. I will leave at any point you tell me to. I am not here to serve my country; I am here because I love you and I want to spend my life with you. If you do feel the same way, then please tell me before we marry. I need to know in the next week if you love me. I cannot play this game anymore.” He tells me firmly as it almost sounds like he is about to cry.
“I think that it may not be wise for us to eat together after all.” I tell him as I just do not see how it can be comfortable for us to be so close after what happened. Mikhail shakes his head slowly clearly distraught with me.
“Gael, please just make up your mind. You were fine this morning before I said that I love you. I understand you being worried but you need to trust me. Relax and just try to think about what you really want.” He tells me and I just keep looking at him staying silent. “Come talk to me later, if you do not have an answer by the end of the week then I am leaving.” He tells me and I just leave not sure what to say.
I eat dinner on my own in my room. I just do not feel ready to see Mikhail yet. I do not even want to think about it so I try to relax as I lie down to bed. I cannot stay asleep for long though as I am waken by a crash of thunder. I lie there for a few moments watching the light flood into the room and listening to the rain. After the thunder strikes again I hear another noise that takes me longer to figure out what it is. Then I hear it again and I sigh not sure how to react. I know that Mikhail is awake from the sound of him pacing in his room.
I cannot help but to remember how Mikhail was with the last storm. I know he was not acting falsely and it worries me to think of him. I want to comfort him but I am unsure if I would even be welcomed in his room. All the same the last time we did end up doing more than just lying together. I try to sleep but I do not end up getting very much sleep for the night.
When I see Mikhail again in the morning I can tell he did not get much sleep either. His eyes are bloodshot and look puffy even just from a distance I can tell he was awake for most of the storm. Since it is still raining I know that it is likely to rain for tonight as well. I manage to avoid Mikhail for the day even though my tasks include a few things having to do with our upcoming wedding so I am not able to get my mind off of him. When I take my supper I indulge in ale and mulled cider until I am more than inebriated.
Still again the thunder wakes me up and again I hear Mikhail pacing in the room next to me. This time though I am still quite drunk so rather than thinking about how he is being kept awake I simply walk to door which connects our chambers and open it with out even knocking. As I suspected it opens easily to reveal Mikhail pacing in the sitting area of his rooms. He looks at me as I enter but does not say a word. Instead he watches me as I move toward him, his teeth visible where they bite his lower lip waiting for me to react.
“Mikhail.” I say his name softly and as soon as I do lightning strikes lighting up his face for me to see the worry there as well as the curiosity. He does not answer and I move closer until I am right in front of him. My hand moves to his face lightly stroking his cheek as I look into his beautiful eyes. “You are so pretty.” I say lightly and still he stays silent as I watch his nostrils flare like he is breathing deeply. “Come with me.” I tell him leaning close and attempting to breathe in his ear. He laughs a bit nervously but he lets me lead him to his bed. I pull him into it and kiss his lips softly.
“Gael, stop.” He tells me pulling away from the kiss half-heartedly and I get that he does not really want me to stop. I move to kiss him again and our lips connect letting me kiss him for a few moments before he pulls away this time. “Please.” He tells me softly though he does not physically pull away.
“Just relax. I am not going to do anything that you do not want. I know what you want.” I slur into his ear breathing hotly all over him. Mikhail keeps a hand on my chest not allowing me to kiss him again.
“Gael, stop you are drunk.” His voice sounds desperate but my eyes keep watching his waiting for him to lose it.
“So?” I grin at him and slide my hand down his side looking at his barely clothed body. All Mikhail is wearing are very minimal underwear that do not cover much at all. It is very obvious to me that he is interested from how his member noticeably twitches when I run my hand down his side. “I want you.” I tell him and I grin sliding my under the clothes to rest on his bare hip.
“If you are trying to distract me you can stop now, I am no longer paying attention to the storm.” He tells me nervously and I just smile wider sliding my hand further to lightly grasp his erection.
“I want this, let me help you.” I tell him trying to pull his clothing out of the way to allow my hand better access to his dick. Mikhail’s hand wraps firmly around my wrist and he kisses me hard smashing his lips into mine. I give into it kissing him back just as hard and my hand crushes his trying to pull away to grab at his heated flesh once more.
“If you still want to in the morning then I will,” he husks into my ear. “But not tonight.” He says keeping my wrist firmly in his grasp.
“I want it now, and in the morning and again. You cannot lose my interest.” I tell him not able to stop the grin at how happy I am to have said something so smart. He grins back and kisses me again slower and more sensitive like making me relax into it. I lose myself into his kiss feeling really happy as I drift off into it.
“It is alright, you do not have to say it back. I just want you to know that I love you.” He tells me again and I still have no idea what to say back. His eyes will no longer meet mine and I know that I have to say something back even if it is not those words. His hand cups my chin making me look into his eyes now. “Now look who is clamming up? Relax; this is what we are supposed to be getting to remember.” He tells me softly and I am finally able to speak again.
“Yes I know, and I am glad that you feel that way. I just think it might take me a little longer for me to feel the same way.” I tell him even though I cannot say the word let alone admit that I may feel that way for him as well. He smiles at me and then lowers his lips to mine once more kissing me deeply. I kiss him back but now I am distracted not sure how to feel about how things have progressed between us. So I pull away and lightly look into his eyes. “I think that perhaps we should wait after all. Perhaps we could eat supper together though?” I ask not wanting to push him off completely and it seems to work since he still smiles at me slightly.
“If that is what you want then I would be delighted to join you for dinner. Right now however I think that I need to bathe and I am sure you need to as well.” He tells me and I smile back at him a little more nervous now that he mentioned bathing even if he did not say that he will be naked I still think it.
“Then I will see you later tonight.” I tell him standing up from the couch. Mikhail stands up as well starting to lead me to the door between our rooms. Before I can open the door though he pulls me in for one more kiss. Despite how we have both been pulling away for one reason or another we kiss deeply this time. I slide my tongue into his mouth pulling him closer and then his hands slide down my side until one grabs my butt. I moan remembering how it felt to have his fingers inside of me. His hand massages me deeper before he slides his hand into my pants instead.
I start to breath harder and my hands spasm on his chest. His lips leave mine to trail down my neck sucking on it lightly as his hand slides further down my ass to slide between the cheeks and lightly presses inward. Then he pushes harder forcing his finger into me and it hurts. I pull away from him now even with how turned on I am I just cannot do this right now. “I will see you later.” I tell him quickly as I open the door. He smiles and laughs even as I make my way back into my own chambers. Suddenly I’m not so sure about any of this.
I head to my bathing chambers stripping off my clothes before I even start the water. Taking my clothes off though just draws even more attention to my erect penis. I slide into the half full tub and start to jerk myself off slowly. I think about Mikhail as I pull on my flesh and I start to get more into it moving faster and moaning under my breath. Just as I am about to orgasm Tobias walks into room; at that moment I get even more embarrassed because I do come.
“I apologize.” Tobias quickly yells as he leaves the room as quickly as he entered it. I sigh, thinking of how my day just keeps getting worse with me sexually today. I cover my eyes briefly with my hand.
“Tobias, come back.” I yell softly not sure if I really mean it but he seems to hear me. Tobias walks back into the room with his eyes cast completely toward the ground. “Did you have something to say to me?” I ask him trying not to be too embarrassed myself.
“Yes, Your Highness. Prince Mikhail would like to have dinner with you in his chambers if that is acceptable. I did not realize you were previously engaged at the moment I walked in and I do apologize.” He says all in one quick breath as he keeps his gaze on the floor.
“Please tell Mikhail that that will be fine. And please try to alert me before you walk into my rooms.” I tell him softly trying to make this easier on both of us but he just quickly bows a little and leaves my presence again. I sigh sliding myself deeper into the water and trying to relax.
I cannot get what Mikhail said out of my head. I know that was the whole point of what he has been trying to do. He said he did not see the point of marrying me if we could not be in love but I still feel like I do not know him very well. Part of me also wonders if maybe in some way I led Charles on and if maybe I know him and like him more than I do Mikhail.
I have gotten to know Mikhail better in the past few moons still I think most of what I feel about him might just be lust not love. I have never actually pursued a real relationship with anyone before Mikhail; maybe I am just getting cold feet but I want to know what is possibly out there for me. I think I should talk to Charles.
I get out of the bath and quickly clothe myself in fine attire for dinner with Mikhail later. Instead of going to talk to the man just next door to me though I leave my chamber headed to find Aradia again. When I do find her chain of attendants though, Charles is no longer with them. Rather than ask my sister I turn to another one of the servants and request his whereabouts. The servant tells me that Charles has the rest of the day off and is most likely in his chambers. So I head to the servants’ quarters instead. It isn’t hard for me to find Charles’ room and as I knock on the door I almost wonder what I am doing here at all.
“Your Highness, it is an honor to see you but what is amiss?” Charles asks me with his head lowered from the moment that he saw it was me outside his door.
“I wish to talk to you, may I come in?” I ask him trying to remember that this has nothing to do with rank and everything to do with us just being people. All the same he seems to think it over for a moment before he backs away to let me into his room.
“Am I to assume that this is a personal matter and I make speak freely?” Charles asks me as he shuts the two of us up in his room alone. My eyes take in the bare room and the simple cot in one corner as I try to take in his words as well.
“Yes, I would like for you to speak freely with me, Charles.” I tell him back as I turn to look at him. “Why did not you tell me about your attraction towards me?” I ask him since maybe that is the thing that bothers me the most. Charles sighs and sits on his bed before answering me.
“I remember the first day that I met you. I was ten summers old and you were just four. It was the first real job that I was given at the castle. I protested it wildly. I did not want to have to be your friend; I did not want to have to baby sit a toddler. Then I saw you, and even then I could not deny that you were pretty. We got along very well then, playing together, and I got a bit possessive of you.
“I think the first time I realized that I was attracted to you was when I was when I was nineteen. We went out to the pond by the tree and you said that we should go for a swim. You were just growing into manhood and I could tell that you would be breath taking in a few more years. Once you stripped off your clothing I found myself looking at you and thinking of things that I would like to do with you.” Charles grows quite after that and even though he did not answer my question his words surprise me more than a simple answer of how it would not have been appropriate for him to tell me of his attraction.
“You have been attracted to me for the past seven years, and you never said a word.” I say not even meaning it as a question. Charles just nods though choosing not to answer me.
“I could never have a relationship with you, Gael. You know that. The best I could have hoped for was that we would have had a brief affair that would be overlooked while you were young. All the same though you never showed any attraction toward me or even males in general so I did not push it. Especially when Mikhail showed you seemed so opposed to having a male lover.” He tells me his eyes again lowered to the floor and I do understand but it hurts to think that I never noticed his attraction toward me. I move closer to Charles until I am right in front of him and before I can think better of my actions I lean down and kiss his lips.
Charles moans at the touch and his lips melt under the pressure instantly parting to allow my tongue entrance. Something about how easily he gives in makes me want him even more and I tilt his chin up to allow myself better access to his mouth. “Gael.” My name softly escapes his lips as I pull back trying to control myself. “I should have left.” Charles says softly and I cannot help but to look at him helpless.
“I am glad that you did not.” I tell him softly even though I keep my distance this time.
“You are marrying Prince Mikhail in just a fortnight’s time. It is too late for you to change your mind Gael. You cannot just walk in here and change everything with a kiss.” Charles says standing up and getting in my face. “You need to leave now.” He tells me pushing me toward the door.
“Charles, I came here to talk to you, I do not want to leave. This is not about Mikhail, I need to know how I feel about you and how you feel is important. So please talk to me.” I tell him and Charles just scoffs at me.
“You think that you might actually have feelings for me? If you were ever attracted to me then you would not have behaved so when you found out that your father had engaged you to a man. You never liked me. You are just afraid to marry Mikhail, because despite how you say that you want to marry for love you have no idea what love even is.” Charles tells me and I do not know what to say now. “Just do everyone a favor and go back to Mikhail. He does not need to know that you even came here.” Charles insists pushing me toward the door again. I start to talk again but Charles just pushes me out regardless, using his larger frame to push me out easily. “I do not want to see you here again.” He tells me then he just shuts the door on me.
I sigh trying to calm down as I think about how much time has passed since I said I would meet Mikhail for supper. I head back to our chambers and instead of going to my own I knock on Mikhail’s door. When he opens the door and sees me a smile blooms on his face and I cannot help but to smile back. Still my thoughts remain on Charles. “You are early.” He tells me before he leans closer to kiss me and I feel guilty enough to turn my head making his kiss land on my cheek instead of my lips. “Is something wrong?” He asks me holding the door open further to allow me in so we can be alone.
“A little. May we talk?” I ask him and now I feel a little silly for even going to talk to Charles in the first place. Mikhail leads me over to a sofa motioning for me to sit next to him. Mikhail looks at me curiously as he is waiting for an answer.
“So, should I be worried?” He asks me and I smile at him trying to think of anything to say at all.
“I saw Charles.” I tell him softly and he just grins seeming confused.
“Yes, I saw him too remember? We saw him with Aradia at the stables.” He says seeming to laugh at me almost.
“No, I mean I went to see him in his room just now.” I tell him even as I am still trying to sort out what all of this means to me. He looks me over slowly before he nods.
“Okay, so do you want to tell me what you are thinking?” He asks and it takes me a second to realize that he did not ask me what happened with Charles just what I am thinking.
“I am just confused. I want to marry you, I just feel like I do not know if I want to marry you because I might love you or if I just think that I should marry you for political reasons.” I tell him softly as I cannot look him in the eyes. Mikhail’s voice is anything but soft when he answers sounding a bit hurt and I cannot blame him.
“You do not have to marry me, Gael. I will leave at any point you tell me to. I am not here to serve my country; I am here because I love you and I want to spend my life with you. If you do feel the same way, then please tell me before we marry. I need to know in the next week if you love me. I cannot play this game anymore.” He tells me firmly as it almost sounds like he is about to cry.
“I think that it may not be wise for us to eat together after all.” I tell him as I just do not see how it can be comfortable for us to be so close after what happened. Mikhail shakes his head slowly clearly distraught with me.
“Gael, please just make up your mind. You were fine this morning before I said that I love you. I understand you being worried but you need to trust me. Relax and just try to think about what you really want.” He tells me and I just keep looking at him staying silent. “Come talk to me later, if you do not have an answer by the end of the week then I am leaving.” He tells me and I just leave not sure what to say.
I eat dinner on my own in my room. I just do not feel ready to see Mikhail yet. I do not even want to think about it so I try to relax as I lie down to bed. I cannot stay asleep for long though as I am waken by a crash of thunder. I lie there for a few moments watching the light flood into the room and listening to the rain. After the thunder strikes again I hear another noise that takes me longer to figure out what it is. Then I hear it again and I sigh not sure how to react. I know that Mikhail is awake from the sound of him pacing in his room.
I cannot help but to remember how Mikhail was with the last storm. I know he was not acting falsely and it worries me to think of him. I want to comfort him but I am unsure if I would even be welcomed in his room. All the same the last time we did end up doing more than just lying together. I try to sleep but I do not end up getting very much sleep for the night.
When I see Mikhail again in the morning I can tell he did not get much sleep either. His eyes are bloodshot and look puffy even just from a distance I can tell he was awake for most of the storm. Since it is still raining I know that it is likely to rain for tonight as well. I manage to avoid Mikhail for the day even though my tasks include a few things having to do with our upcoming wedding so I am not able to get my mind off of him. When I take my supper I indulge in ale and mulled cider until I am more than inebriated.
Still again the thunder wakes me up and again I hear Mikhail pacing in the room next to me. This time though I am still quite drunk so rather than thinking about how he is being kept awake I simply walk to door which connects our chambers and open it with out even knocking. As I suspected it opens easily to reveal Mikhail pacing in the sitting area of his rooms. He looks at me as I enter but does not say a word. Instead he watches me as I move toward him, his teeth visible where they bite his lower lip waiting for me to react.
“Mikhail.” I say his name softly and as soon as I do lightning strikes lighting up his face for me to see the worry there as well as the curiosity. He does not answer and I move closer until I am right in front of him. My hand moves to his face lightly stroking his cheek as I look into his beautiful eyes. “You are so pretty.” I say lightly and still he stays silent as I watch his nostrils flare like he is breathing deeply. “Come with me.” I tell him leaning close and attempting to breathe in his ear. He laughs a bit nervously but he lets me lead him to his bed. I pull him into it and kiss his lips softly.
“Gael, stop.” He tells me pulling away from the kiss half-heartedly and I get that he does not really want me to stop. I move to kiss him again and our lips connect letting me kiss him for a few moments before he pulls away this time. “Please.” He tells me softly though he does not physically pull away.
“Just relax. I am not going to do anything that you do not want. I know what you want.” I slur into his ear breathing hotly all over him. Mikhail keeps a hand on my chest not allowing me to kiss him again.
“Gael, stop you are drunk.” His voice sounds desperate but my eyes keep watching his waiting for him to lose it.
“So?” I grin at him and slide my hand down his side looking at his barely clothed body. All Mikhail is wearing are very minimal underwear that do not cover much at all. It is very obvious to me that he is interested from how his member noticeably twitches when I run my hand down his side. “I want you.” I tell him and I grin sliding my under the clothes to rest on his bare hip.
“If you are trying to distract me you can stop now, I am no longer paying attention to the storm.” He tells me nervously and I just smile wider sliding my hand further to lightly grasp his erection.
“I want this, let me help you.” I tell him trying to pull his clothing out of the way to allow my hand better access to his dick. Mikhail’s hand wraps firmly around my wrist and he kisses me hard smashing his lips into mine. I give into it kissing him back just as hard and my hand crushes his trying to pull away to grab at his heated flesh once more.
“If you still want to in the morning then I will,” he husks into my ear. “But not tonight.” He says keeping my wrist firmly in his grasp.
“I want it now, and in the morning and again. You cannot lose my interest.” I tell him not able to stop the grin at how happy I am to have said something so smart. He grins back and kisses me again slower and more sensitive like making me relax into it. I lose myself into his kiss feeling really happy as I drift off into it.