Chapter 2
For the first night in almost a week I don't drink myself to sleep. It almost seems strange to wake up without a hangover in the morning. I get up out of bed and log onto my laptop getting into my Facebook account. When I do though I see I have new friend request. I click on it only to be a bit surprised when the profile picture shows Will complete with his new highlights. The message on the request is a little surprising as well. Hey, I didn't mean to scare you off. I just got a bit of a vibe from you but if I was wrong it's fine. I'm not looking for anything. Just thought you might be good company. His message is a little strange though as I can't tell if he still means he would want to date me or not. I stay for a moment looking at the page and trying to consider what to do. I click accept and sigh. Then I go onto his page to send him a message.
I'm not really sure what you mean by wanting my company. I mean it kind of sounded like you were asking me out on a date. I write even though I don't expect an instant response. I get up and take a shower wondering if I am somehow flirting with him right now. I shave after my shower looking carefully at myself. My brown hair is short down to my ears on the side and the nape of my neck in the back. A fairly simple haircut and all my own natural color. My eyes are tired and have wrinkles under them but the light green still shows through. I don't think I look too bad considering I haven't really been taking care of myself lately. I dry off and then start to get dressed. I wear a button up green shirt the same color as my eyes and a pair of dark jeans. As I sit down to put my shoes on though I see that Will has messaged me again.
Well I kind of was. I thought you might be into it. It doesn't have to be serious though. I'm just in town for a few days. It'd be nice to have a good dinner. He wrote and I smile a little.
Although I wouldn't mind having a dinner out either, I'm not looking for a date. I write but I hesitate not sure if I should write my next thought. Honestly, I've never been out with a guy before. I type with a sigh but I hit the send button. I turn off the laptop not sure I want to see if he writes a return message right now. I'm really not sure what I'm hoping comes from all of this. I go to the kitchen to make myself some breakfast. I quickly scramble a couple of eggs and make toast. It isn't much but it's enough to fill me along with some coffee. By the time that I'm finished eating it's still early but I head into the salon.
As I park my car though I hear my phone make a little chime and open it to find that I have another new message on my Facebook account. I bite my lip arguing with myself whether or not I should open it. In the end I can't help myself though I click onto the message. How about lunch then? No strings attached. I can meet you at the salon, just say when. I sigh thinking about it but deciding not to answer just yet. I also think about Jamie though and how he was urging me to go for it. I'm not so sure though.
Cindy seems almost amazed to see me this early but she doesn't say anything as I walk straight to my booth. I pull out my schedule only to see I don't have a client for another twenty minutes. I keep looking at my schedule though trying to see if I am actually able to take a break around lunch time today. I have a good hour gap right around one this afternoon. So I really don't have any excuse to say no to Will. I pull out my phone again to reply to him, but I'm unsure of what to write. Ok,one o clock. I type back deciding to keep it simple. Then I put away my phone again.
The day seems to fly by after that. I don't bother to check my phone again, but right before one I see Will walk into the salon. My breath catches a little at seeing him again and knowing that we are about to go out on what could very well be considered a date. I finish blow drying my client's hair and styling it even though my eyes keep trailing back to Will. I turn my client around to the mirror finished and take off the cape. “All done, Cindy will cash you out right at the reception desk. Have a nice day.” I tell her and I have to keep myself from walking straight to Will. I wait for the client to finish looking herself over before following her to the reception desk. Will looks at me as I approach with a wide smile on his face and I stop to actually take a better look at him.
He is a little on the shorter side and rather thin as well. His hair is partially spiked right now and the highlights make his eyes pop with a nice green tint. He's wearing a white polo shirt with dark blue jeans and a black leather jacket. He also has on black motorcycle boots that cover part of the bottom of his jeans. I don't really know what I think but he does look good. “Hello again Jeremy.” He tells me with a smile and I grin back at him hesitantly.
“Hey.” I say simply not really wanting to say much while we are still inside the salon. Once we exit the building though I can feel my heart beating faster and I start to panic.
“So I'm sure you know what's nearby. Any where specific that you want to go?” He asks and I try to think but my mind has just about gone blank on everything. When I don't answer him for a few minutes he starts talking again. “Alright how about we keep it simple. I saw an Applebee's on the way here; does that sound good? We can go dutch.” He offers and I'm almost amazed by how smooth he is.
“That sounds great actually.” I manage to say but then I look to the parking lot and I'm presented with another dilemma. “So should we go in our own cars or should I meet you there and we can take separate cars?” I ask amazed that my voice doesn't sound half as shocked as I feel. Will looks at me trying to assess me before he answers.
“Well I know it isn't gas efficient, but I think for right now we should take separate cars. I will see you there though.” He answers with a smile. “We'll meet outside and go in together ok.” He tells me and I nod to him.
“Ok. I'll see you there.” I answer and with that he heads to his car. I go to mine as well. When I sit down in the car I feel my heart beating again and I have to take a few deep breathes before I can even start the car. Once I hear the music from the radio it starts to sooth me though and I'm able to get out of the parking lot. It's no wonder though that Will makes it to the restaurant before me. He is propped against the wall of the building waiting for me almost like he wasn't sure I would actually show up. “So do you want to go in then?” I ask him when I get up to him and he kicks off the building to start walking.
“Sounds good. So do you go here a lot or tend to hit up cheaper places? Or do you actually bring a lunch most days?” Will asks clearly just trying to start up a conversation. I try to gather my thoughts and luckily we get seated almost as soon as we walk in. Still it gives me a second to think.
“I eat a lot of fast food. There's a Subway nearby too so I eat there a lot. I try to convince myself that it's better than McDonald's or Burger King.” I tell him and Will just nods. Then the sever is back to ask us for our drink orders. I quickly flip the menu to the drinks and go with something simple. “I'll take a Dr. Pepper.” I say simply and I see Will looking at the menu as well.
“I'll have a wildberry frozen lemonade.” He says and I find myself looking at him a little more.
“Perfect. I'll give you time to look over the menu and I'll be right back with your drinks.” The sever says and then she walks away to get our drinks.
“I try not to drink a lot of soda. I don't eat very well since I'm on the road a lot. That's one of the few things I try to make myself feel better about. I don't drink a lot of alcohol either.” He says and I grin a little since I know he saw all of the alcohol in my cart when we were at the grocery store.
“Yea, I know that didn't look good. I've kind of been going through something lately. I admit that I've been drinking quite a bit lately.” I tell him trying to be honest but I'm not sure how much of it I want to get in to.
“Do you want to talk about it? I promise not to be judgmental.” He offers and I grin a little trying to think of what exactly to say.
“A friend of mine was living with me and I started to develop feelings for him. He's now happily living with his boyfriend.” I say trying to put it as simply as possible. At the point the sever shows up again though so Will is unable to answer me.
“Alright here are your drinks. Are you ready to order or do you need some more time?” She asks and I grin looking again at the lunch specials.
“I'll take the classic turkey breast sandwich with the strawberry and avocado salad with dressing on the side.” I tell her and she nods then looks to Will.
“I'll have the three cheese chicken penne with chicken tortilla soup.” He answers handing his menu to the waitress and taking a sip of his drink. Then he looks at me again as she leaves. “So I'm a little confused here. You said you haven't been on a date with a guy before. Are you straight or did something more happen with this guy?” He asks and I bite my lip.
“Both... sort of. I had kind of a one night thing with him years ago. Other than that though, yea I've only dated women. I've found myself attracted to guys before but I've never acted on it.” I say biting my lip a little. I take a drink of my soda to distract myself but this is getting into all the hard questions very quickly. Will takes his time to talk again.
“Alright. So then I guess the big question here is what you are thinking now. Do you want to try a relationship with me? I'm out of town a lot so I can't guarantee we will see each other often. I'd be happy to get to know you in the meantime though. We can talk on the phone and online. It might be easier for you to go into this slowly. We can get to know each other and let the sexual stuff go slowly.” He says and honestly it all sounds almost too logical of an approach to me.
“It doesn't really sound fair. I mean it kind of leaves everything up to me in a way.” I say not really sure what I am doing here. Will smiles at me though not seeming like he is worried about it at all.
“I don't have a ton of time to date. It's hard to find someone who is willing to work with a long distance relationship. Also most guys aren't really interested when it means we only get to be together sexually maybe once a month. So the fact that you aren't ready for it is kind of a good thing in my case.” He explains and we are again interrupted by the server as she brings us our food. Neither of us speaks for a good few minutes as we both take a couple of bites of our food.
“This sounds too thought out. I mean we're talking about dating here. Isn't it supposed to be fun and reckless?” I ask Will and he just laughs.
“I like you. I want to be smart about this because in my experience the long distance thing is more than most people can handle. So it needs to be a little more set up in this case. If you're up to it though I'd like to give this a shot.” He tells me and I delay answering by taking another bite of my salad.
“When do you leave next?” I ask him and he sighs.
“The day after tomorrow.” He says and all of this sounds very fast to me. I'm not sure what I'm getting into here.
“I guess we can give it a shot.” I tell him and then he just grins widely at me. He doesn't reply though and we both just eat silently for a while. It isn't until we are both almost done eating that one of us speaks up again. “So can I see you again tomorrow before you leave? Maybe something a little more casual. You could come over and watch a movie with me at my apartment.” I offer even though I know my place is quite a bit of a mess. Will grins at me seeming interested and I'm starting to like his toothy smile.
“That sounds great. Do you have work, or is there a time that works better for you?” He asks and I'm a little amazed how logical he is.
“I need to go in the morning for a little bit but I should be home right around noon. So maybe you can come over around one or two?” I say biting my lip a little as I think that it's strange to say we might be dating when nothing physical has happened at all and might not for a month. I don't think I've been in relationship that moves this slowly since like high school.
“So should I bring a movie then? Is there anything you want to see?” He asks and I grin back at him.
“Sure just bring whatever you want. I'm about done here and I need to get back to work. Let me give you my number and I can text you the address. So I'll see you tomorrow?” I tell him taking another drink of my soda and wiping my face with my napkin. Will takes another drink as well before he answers me.
“Sounds good. Do you want me to bring any drinks or anything?” He asks and it feels almost like we're planing a party rather than a date.
“Um no just come over with the movie.” I tell him and Will pulls out his wallet. I grab the check and look at it quickly before setting it back on the table. Then I grab my wallet as well. “I'm still paying half.” I tell him even though I could probably use the money. All the same though I pull out enough money for half the bill and the tip. Will grins and stands up placing his money on the table as well. We walk slowly out of the building but once we get to the parking lot we both stop.
“So, I'm going to say goodbye now because I'm not following you back to your work. And if it's ok, I'd like to kiss you now.” He says bluntly and I catch my breath for a moment just standing there looking at him. Then I manage to nod a little and he steps closer to me placing his hands on my hips and pulling me to him. “I need to hear you say you want this.” He whispers in my ear and my breathing becomes hard again.
“Kiss me.” I tell him softly and then with another grin Will's lips softly touch mine. It starts very simple with just lips pressed against mine and I slowly move mine as well. Then I feel his tongue gently press against my lips and I sigh letting it inside. Our tongues slowly explore each others mouths and by the time we pull away I'm breathing heavily again but for an entirely different reason than before. I amazed how turned on I am right now from just one kiss. “So do you have a pen or something for me to write my number on?” I ask him choosing not to say anything about the kiss we just shared. Will pulls out his phone instead and hands it to me.
“Just put your number in then I can call you so you will have mine.” He tells me sliding the phone into my hand. I quickly type in my cell phone number and name. Will takes it back looks at it for a moment before hitting the call button. My cell phone starts to ring in my pocket and I take it out. I don't bother to actually hold it to my ear though choosing to just save the number instead. “So I'll see you tomorrow around two.” He tells me and I nod to him.
“I have to get back to work. I'll text you my address once I get home.” I tell him and luckily Will doesn't kiss me again this time. He just nods and heads to his car. When I sit down my car again though I hear my phone chime with a new message. So I had a great time. I'm looking forward to kissing you again tomorrow. It says and I sigh thinking of his lips on mine. It just felt really good. I start my car deciding to wait to text him back. I need to focus on getting back to work right now. Before I get out of the car though I text Will back. I'll be happy to see you tomorrow too. I type back not wanting to say something about kissing like he did. Still I can't help the smile on my face. I guess I must still be smiling when I walk in because Cindy gives me a strange look like she is almost surprised but I just roll my eyes and scowl at her a little. I only have a couple more appointments before I finish out the day. I know I'm distracted by the thought of seeing Will again tomorrow though.
Then I get to thinking. Tomorrow is going to be just us alone in my apartment. We may be taking it slow but I'm getting nervous just thinking of it. I've had this situation with women before and it has ended up in the sack much quicker then we seemed to be talking about. I'm not sure I really believe that nothing will happen. Surprisingly that thought scares me more than it should. In a way I almost want something to happen. I am actually very attracted to Will. At the same time though it's not that simple. I'm not sure how most of this will work. I mean I'm not a moron but I don't know whether he would want to be on top. I don't know how comfortable I am touching him in an intimate way. God I feel like I'm a virgin again. I don't know what to do here.
When I leave work and get home the thoughts just get worse. I look around my apartment and see what a mess it is though and it helps to distract me a bit. I turn on my music real loud and start cleaning up. I go through the living room and the kitchen quickly then end up taking a little longer in the bathroom. When the only room left is mine though I hesitate. Should I clean my room? By cleaning my room it means that I expect us to end up in here. I mean yea I guess that is the over all point of dating in the long run but I've known Will for all of two days here. I'm definitely not ready to jump into bed with him. I don't know if I'll ever be ready for it. All the same though my room isn't in the best shape, I should probably clean it even if it's just for my own sake. So I grab up all of my dirty clothes from the floor and start to straighten up my bed. As I do though I can't help to bite my lip. I pull off the sheets and grab out new ones to remake the bed. As I'm pulling the corners tight though my phone rings and I pull it out to see I have another message from Will.
So are you still going to text me your address or have you changed your mind now that you're over-thinking everything? I'm almost amazed by how easily he hits the nail right on the head. I delay answering him for a few seconds because I really can't think of what to say.
Can I call you? I text back really needing some reassurance right now. Within a few seconds my phone is ringing. I answer it before I can think of a reason not to. “Hey.” I say softly still a little unsure of myself.
“Hello again Jeremy. You okay?” He asks simply and I'm still unsure of how it is possible for him to be so easy going about virtually everything.
“Yea, just honestly panicking a little. I'm not so sure about us being alone.” I say really not sure how to say it without saying it. I don't really feel comfortable getting right to the point though.
“So... do you want to just meet up somewhere else? Or should we wait to see each other again when I get back? It's about a three week trip so I'd still like to see you before I leave. I understand if you don't feel comfortable being alone with me just yet though.” He says and somehow it just makes me feel like shit since he is being so considerate about everything.
“Uh, I want to see you, I do.” I answer but it doesn't really answer anything.
“So where do I meet you?” He asks but he makes it sound so simple.
“Come over to my apartment. I will text you as soon as we hang up.” I tell him even though I'm still not sure about all of this.
“Are you sure?” He asks and I bite my lip a little.
“Yes, I will see you tomorrow. I got to go now though.” I tell him not able to keep talking now that I know he is coming over.
“Alright, I'll see you tomorrow. I'll bring the movie.” He tells me and I nod for a moment before I think about the face that he can't even see me.
“Okay, bye.” I say going back to my bedroom. I sit down on my bed as I hear him tell me goodbye.
“Goodbye Jeremy.” He says and then he hangs up. I sigh lying down on my clean bed. Still I'm a little amazed when I fall asleep.
I'm not really sure what you mean by wanting my company. I mean it kind of sounded like you were asking me out on a date. I write even though I don't expect an instant response. I get up and take a shower wondering if I am somehow flirting with him right now. I shave after my shower looking carefully at myself. My brown hair is short down to my ears on the side and the nape of my neck in the back. A fairly simple haircut and all my own natural color. My eyes are tired and have wrinkles under them but the light green still shows through. I don't think I look too bad considering I haven't really been taking care of myself lately. I dry off and then start to get dressed. I wear a button up green shirt the same color as my eyes and a pair of dark jeans. As I sit down to put my shoes on though I see that Will has messaged me again.
Well I kind of was. I thought you might be into it. It doesn't have to be serious though. I'm just in town for a few days. It'd be nice to have a good dinner. He wrote and I smile a little.
Although I wouldn't mind having a dinner out either, I'm not looking for a date. I write but I hesitate not sure if I should write my next thought. Honestly, I've never been out with a guy before. I type with a sigh but I hit the send button. I turn off the laptop not sure I want to see if he writes a return message right now. I'm really not sure what I'm hoping comes from all of this. I go to the kitchen to make myself some breakfast. I quickly scramble a couple of eggs and make toast. It isn't much but it's enough to fill me along with some coffee. By the time that I'm finished eating it's still early but I head into the salon.
As I park my car though I hear my phone make a little chime and open it to find that I have another new message on my Facebook account. I bite my lip arguing with myself whether or not I should open it. In the end I can't help myself though I click onto the message. How about lunch then? No strings attached. I can meet you at the salon, just say when. I sigh thinking about it but deciding not to answer just yet. I also think about Jamie though and how he was urging me to go for it. I'm not so sure though.
Cindy seems almost amazed to see me this early but she doesn't say anything as I walk straight to my booth. I pull out my schedule only to see I don't have a client for another twenty minutes. I keep looking at my schedule though trying to see if I am actually able to take a break around lunch time today. I have a good hour gap right around one this afternoon. So I really don't have any excuse to say no to Will. I pull out my phone again to reply to him, but I'm unsure of what to write. Ok,one o clock. I type back deciding to keep it simple. Then I put away my phone again.
The day seems to fly by after that. I don't bother to check my phone again, but right before one I see Will walk into the salon. My breath catches a little at seeing him again and knowing that we are about to go out on what could very well be considered a date. I finish blow drying my client's hair and styling it even though my eyes keep trailing back to Will. I turn my client around to the mirror finished and take off the cape. “All done, Cindy will cash you out right at the reception desk. Have a nice day.” I tell her and I have to keep myself from walking straight to Will. I wait for the client to finish looking herself over before following her to the reception desk. Will looks at me as I approach with a wide smile on his face and I stop to actually take a better look at him.
He is a little on the shorter side and rather thin as well. His hair is partially spiked right now and the highlights make his eyes pop with a nice green tint. He's wearing a white polo shirt with dark blue jeans and a black leather jacket. He also has on black motorcycle boots that cover part of the bottom of his jeans. I don't really know what I think but he does look good. “Hello again Jeremy.” He tells me with a smile and I grin back at him hesitantly.
“Hey.” I say simply not really wanting to say much while we are still inside the salon. Once we exit the building though I can feel my heart beating faster and I start to panic.
“So I'm sure you know what's nearby. Any where specific that you want to go?” He asks and I try to think but my mind has just about gone blank on everything. When I don't answer him for a few minutes he starts talking again. “Alright how about we keep it simple. I saw an Applebee's on the way here; does that sound good? We can go dutch.” He offers and I'm almost amazed by how smooth he is.
“That sounds great actually.” I manage to say but then I look to the parking lot and I'm presented with another dilemma. “So should we go in our own cars or should I meet you there and we can take separate cars?” I ask amazed that my voice doesn't sound half as shocked as I feel. Will looks at me trying to assess me before he answers.
“Well I know it isn't gas efficient, but I think for right now we should take separate cars. I will see you there though.” He answers with a smile. “We'll meet outside and go in together ok.” He tells me and I nod to him.
“Ok. I'll see you there.” I answer and with that he heads to his car. I go to mine as well. When I sit down in the car I feel my heart beating again and I have to take a few deep breathes before I can even start the car. Once I hear the music from the radio it starts to sooth me though and I'm able to get out of the parking lot. It's no wonder though that Will makes it to the restaurant before me. He is propped against the wall of the building waiting for me almost like he wasn't sure I would actually show up. “So do you want to go in then?” I ask him when I get up to him and he kicks off the building to start walking.
“Sounds good. So do you go here a lot or tend to hit up cheaper places? Or do you actually bring a lunch most days?” Will asks clearly just trying to start up a conversation. I try to gather my thoughts and luckily we get seated almost as soon as we walk in. Still it gives me a second to think.
“I eat a lot of fast food. There's a Subway nearby too so I eat there a lot. I try to convince myself that it's better than McDonald's or Burger King.” I tell him and Will just nods. Then the sever is back to ask us for our drink orders. I quickly flip the menu to the drinks and go with something simple. “I'll take a Dr. Pepper.” I say simply and I see Will looking at the menu as well.
“I'll have a wildberry frozen lemonade.” He says and I find myself looking at him a little more.
“Perfect. I'll give you time to look over the menu and I'll be right back with your drinks.” The sever says and then she walks away to get our drinks.
“I try not to drink a lot of soda. I don't eat very well since I'm on the road a lot. That's one of the few things I try to make myself feel better about. I don't drink a lot of alcohol either.” He says and I grin a little since I know he saw all of the alcohol in my cart when we were at the grocery store.
“Yea, I know that didn't look good. I've kind of been going through something lately. I admit that I've been drinking quite a bit lately.” I tell him trying to be honest but I'm not sure how much of it I want to get in to.
“Do you want to talk about it? I promise not to be judgmental.” He offers and I grin a little trying to think of what exactly to say.
“A friend of mine was living with me and I started to develop feelings for him. He's now happily living with his boyfriend.” I say trying to put it as simply as possible. At the point the sever shows up again though so Will is unable to answer me.
“Alright here are your drinks. Are you ready to order or do you need some more time?” She asks and I grin looking again at the lunch specials.
“I'll take the classic turkey breast sandwich with the strawberry and avocado salad with dressing on the side.” I tell her and she nods then looks to Will.
“I'll have the three cheese chicken penne with chicken tortilla soup.” He answers handing his menu to the waitress and taking a sip of his drink. Then he looks at me again as she leaves. “So I'm a little confused here. You said you haven't been on a date with a guy before. Are you straight or did something more happen with this guy?” He asks and I bite my lip.
“Both... sort of. I had kind of a one night thing with him years ago. Other than that though, yea I've only dated women. I've found myself attracted to guys before but I've never acted on it.” I say biting my lip a little. I take a drink of my soda to distract myself but this is getting into all the hard questions very quickly. Will takes his time to talk again.
“Alright. So then I guess the big question here is what you are thinking now. Do you want to try a relationship with me? I'm out of town a lot so I can't guarantee we will see each other often. I'd be happy to get to know you in the meantime though. We can talk on the phone and online. It might be easier for you to go into this slowly. We can get to know each other and let the sexual stuff go slowly.” He says and honestly it all sounds almost too logical of an approach to me.
“It doesn't really sound fair. I mean it kind of leaves everything up to me in a way.” I say not really sure what I am doing here. Will smiles at me though not seeming like he is worried about it at all.
“I don't have a ton of time to date. It's hard to find someone who is willing to work with a long distance relationship. Also most guys aren't really interested when it means we only get to be together sexually maybe once a month. So the fact that you aren't ready for it is kind of a good thing in my case.” He explains and we are again interrupted by the server as she brings us our food. Neither of us speaks for a good few minutes as we both take a couple of bites of our food.
“This sounds too thought out. I mean we're talking about dating here. Isn't it supposed to be fun and reckless?” I ask Will and he just laughs.
“I like you. I want to be smart about this because in my experience the long distance thing is more than most people can handle. So it needs to be a little more set up in this case. If you're up to it though I'd like to give this a shot.” He tells me and I delay answering by taking another bite of my salad.
“When do you leave next?” I ask him and he sighs.
“The day after tomorrow.” He says and all of this sounds very fast to me. I'm not sure what I'm getting into here.
“I guess we can give it a shot.” I tell him and then he just grins widely at me. He doesn't reply though and we both just eat silently for a while. It isn't until we are both almost done eating that one of us speaks up again. “So can I see you again tomorrow before you leave? Maybe something a little more casual. You could come over and watch a movie with me at my apartment.” I offer even though I know my place is quite a bit of a mess. Will grins at me seeming interested and I'm starting to like his toothy smile.
“That sounds great. Do you have work, or is there a time that works better for you?” He asks and I'm a little amazed how logical he is.
“I need to go in the morning for a little bit but I should be home right around noon. So maybe you can come over around one or two?” I say biting my lip a little as I think that it's strange to say we might be dating when nothing physical has happened at all and might not for a month. I don't think I've been in relationship that moves this slowly since like high school.
“So should I bring a movie then? Is there anything you want to see?” He asks and I grin back at him.
“Sure just bring whatever you want. I'm about done here and I need to get back to work. Let me give you my number and I can text you the address. So I'll see you tomorrow?” I tell him taking another drink of my soda and wiping my face with my napkin. Will takes another drink as well before he answers me.
“Sounds good. Do you want me to bring any drinks or anything?” He asks and it feels almost like we're planing a party rather than a date.
“Um no just come over with the movie.” I tell him and Will pulls out his wallet. I grab the check and look at it quickly before setting it back on the table. Then I grab my wallet as well. “I'm still paying half.” I tell him even though I could probably use the money. All the same though I pull out enough money for half the bill and the tip. Will grins and stands up placing his money on the table as well. We walk slowly out of the building but once we get to the parking lot we both stop.
“So, I'm going to say goodbye now because I'm not following you back to your work. And if it's ok, I'd like to kiss you now.” He says bluntly and I catch my breath for a moment just standing there looking at him. Then I manage to nod a little and he steps closer to me placing his hands on my hips and pulling me to him. “I need to hear you say you want this.” He whispers in my ear and my breathing becomes hard again.
“Kiss me.” I tell him softly and then with another grin Will's lips softly touch mine. It starts very simple with just lips pressed against mine and I slowly move mine as well. Then I feel his tongue gently press against my lips and I sigh letting it inside. Our tongues slowly explore each others mouths and by the time we pull away I'm breathing heavily again but for an entirely different reason than before. I amazed how turned on I am right now from just one kiss. “So do you have a pen or something for me to write my number on?” I ask him choosing not to say anything about the kiss we just shared. Will pulls out his phone instead and hands it to me.
“Just put your number in then I can call you so you will have mine.” He tells me sliding the phone into my hand. I quickly type in my cell phone number and name. Will takes it back looks at it for a moment before hitting the call button. My cell phone starts to ring in my pocket and I take it out. I don't bother to actually hold it to my ear though choosing to just save the number instead. “So I'll see you tomorrow around two.” He tells me and I nod to him.
“I have to get back to work. I'll text you my address once I get home.” I tell him and luckily Will doesn't kiss me again this time. He just nods and heads to his car. When I sit down my car again though I hear my phone chime with a new message. So I had a great time. I'm looking forward to kissing you again tomorrow. It says and I sigh thinking of his lips on mine. It just felt really good. I start my car deciding to wait to text him back. I need to focus on getting back to work right now. Before I get out of the car though I text Will back. I'll be happy to see you tomorrow too. I type back not wanting to say something about kissing like he did. Still I can't help the smile on my face. I guess I must still be smiling when I walk in because Cindy gives me a strange look like she is almost surprised but I just roll my eyes and scowl at her a little. I only have a couple more appointments before I finish out the day. I know I'm distracted by the thought of seeing Will again tomorrow though.
Then I get to thinking. Tomorrow is going to be just us alone in my apartment. We may be taking it slow but I'm getting nervous just thinking of it. I've had this situation with women before and it has ended up in the sack much quicker then we seemed to be talking about. I'm not sure I really believe that nothing will happen. Surprisingly that thought scares me more than it should. In a way I almost want something to happen. I am actually very attracted to Will. At the same time though it's not that simple. I'm not sure how most of this will work. I mean I'm not a moron but I don't know whether he would want to be on top. I don't know how comfortable I am touching him in an intimate way. God I feel like I'm a virgin again. I don't know what to do here.
When I leave work and get home the thoughts just get worse. I look around my apartment and see what a mess it is though and it helps to distract me a bit. I turn on my music real loud and start cleaning up. I go through the living room and the kitchen quickly then end up taking a little longer in the bathroom. When the only room left is mine though I hesitate. Should I clean my room? By cleaning my room it means that I expect us to end up in here. I mean yea I guess that is the over all point of dating in the long run but I've known Will for all of two days here. I'm definitely not ready to jump into bed with him. I don't know if I'll ever be ready for it. All the same though my room isn't in the best shape, I should probably clean it even if it's just for my own sake. So I grab up all of my dirty clothes from the floor and start to straighten up my bed. As I do though I can't help to bite my lip. I pull off the sheets and grab out new ones to remake the bed. As I'm pulling the corners tight though my phone rings and I pull it out to see I have another message from Will.
So are you still going to text me your address or have you changed your mind now that you're over-thinking everything? I'm almost amazed by how easily he hits the nail right on the head. I delay answering him for a few seconds because I really can't think of what to say.
Can I call you? I text back really needing some reassurance right now. Within a few seconds my phone is ringing. I answer it before I can think of a reason not to. “Hey.” I say softly still a little unsure of myself.
“Hello again Jeremy. You okay?” He asks simply and I'm still unsure of how it is possible for him to be so easy going about virtually everything.
“Yea, just honestly panicking a little. I'm not so sure about us being alone.” I say really not sure how to say it without saying it. I don't really feel comfortable getting right to the point though.
“So... do you want to just meet up somewhere else? Or should we wait to see each other again when I get back? It's about a three week trip so I'd still like to see you before I leave. I understand if you don't feel comfortable being alone with me just yet though.” He says and somehow it just makes me feel like shit since he is being so considerate about everything.
“Uh, I want to see you, I do.” I answer but it doesn't really answer anything.
“So where do I meet you?” He asks but he makes it sound so simple.
“Come over to my apartment. I will text you as soon as we hang up.” I tell him even though I'm still not sure about all of this.
“Are you sure?” He asks and I bite my lip a little.
“Yes, I will see you tomorrow. I got to go now though.” I tell him not able to keep talking now that I know he is coming over.
“Alright, I'll see you tomorrow. I'll bring the movie.” He tells me and I nod for a moment before I think about the face that he can't even see me.
“Okay, bye.” I say going back to my bedroom. I sit down on my bed as I hear him tell me goodbye.
“Goodbye Jeremy.” He says and then he hangs up. I sigh lying down on my clean bed. Still I'm a little amazed when I fall asleep.